There are some days where I want to be socially active and feel very cocky and make witty jokes. I take the dog for a walk and feel like "Yeah, I can do this stuff. I won't be put down." Then question if that is AS or not. But in the end, that whole day is still spent not going out somewhere and is just myself thinking it. For example today I opted out of going to a paid concert that is tomorrow (bought the ticket a month ago) because I didn't want to go early to get a spot and because I saw the venue and didn't like how close to each other the people are. I then proceeded to say I didn't want to go to graduation either because it would make me feel uncomfortable being around those people again.

But there are many days where I don't think about it and feel like an average kid. I want to hang out with friends and say "yeah, I'll go to graduation and show them" I used to draw attention to myself, but all in all, when you take down the facts, my friendships have mainly failed. When you look at the days I say "I want to be super social and go out today" and I talk to a friend on the phone...there is just a lot of awkward silence. So really, I guess I could feel that way all I want and say "Do I have AS? Because today I am cutting the lawn all cocky and stuff." But at the same time I'm thinking "I hope people aren't watching me do it."