As I feel this season wasn't even spent worthwhile. Summer used to be my favorite season. Now, I absolutely hate it. I will forever remember the wasted graduation summer.  I didn't get to do any of what I wanted.

Because I lacked the ability to earn money, travel, and gain good experiences, I feel incomplete. I feel incomplete because I love water, and adventure. I didn't get to have the scuba diving, or the roller coasters that I enjoy this season. I'm incomplete unless I get to have an enjoyable life. I didn't earn money for goals, travel, cruise, or start a career ladder
Instead of going having good times, I was in the house having a fuss constantly.

I will never again have a 22 year old summer again. Graduation was once in a lifetime.

What I want is to make up for lost time, and feelings.  I want to compensate for this horrid graduation, and this damn waste of a summer.

You still have the rest of August. Enjoy it. Or not. The choice is up to you.

I rarely get to do what I want. Occassionally I get a chance to treat myself in a small way and I do not *** about the bad or hard times.

Why is that?

I used to have that attitude

This post was last modified: 08-08-2012 07:20 AM by Xaisede.

All you did was be huffy puffy about having "wasted" your life.... All the complaining you do is wasting time, perseverating on it is wasting your wee hours of summer out the window. You could of done something, yet all you did was complain that you didn't get this, you didn't get that.... sadly enough you wasted your summer complaining on the summer that was "wasted" on highly unrealistic goals.

You could of gone out and did something on your own, find people to hang relate to, learn to drive (or at least try to), live life without having to be so "whiny" about it.

All this complaining is stressing you out and is not necessary.

It is hard to resist the urge to perseverate.  I can usually recognize when I'm doing this now and try to keep it to myself, but a few years ago I could not do that.  

D is right.  You've got the rest of August, do something! I'm sure there's a lake or something around you where you can just lay out with a book.  Volunteer to work with kids or work at the library until you  have a paid position - those things look good on a resume anyway, and being productive feels good.  

Carpe Diem!

May i please start a thread titled. "I have the right to be good looking" or perhaps "I have the right to be rich" or "I have the right to be a superstar".
I think the answers would be similar as the positions of many threads of yours lately LK are of this peculiar stance.

Sorry for my bad English, but what do you mean with: "to treat myself in a small way" in this context.

OK what i mean is this. I may not be able to go on overseas holidays or get a better place or better home to live in and work is by its being hard and stressful BUT I will treat myself to a few drinks on a Friday and take the kids out on every other weekend somewhere nice and buy a few things like teh ebook readers we got the other day. Guiltfree and for no other reason than to treat myself.

I did get to go visit extended relatives, and hang out with best friends. Hanging out with friends (when they aren't busy with their jobs) is a rewarding pleasure.

Yes and they are treats. Do you deserve more or ought you be entitled to more? It is a silly line of thinking and for all the reasons that the following threads I could post would be

"I deserve the right to be good looking"
"I deserve the right to be rich"
"I deserve the right to be a superstar"

It is not reasonable assertions. Any more than the kind of "I deserve the right to happiness" is.
Do the best with what you have and enjoy what you can elk out of this life. it is the only one you have. Unless you believe of course in heaven.

Here are some ideas for work/volunteer work abroad:

australia

http://www.interexchange.org/working-abroad

http://www.realgap.com/gap-travel-advice/working-abroad

Disney program for teaching English

You can work in the places that people go on vacation, so that in your off time, *poof* you're on vacation!  Pretty cool. Just some thoughts.

I know exactly how you feel.  I wasted 15 years of my life on a fruitless goal, and I want that time back.  Unlike other people here, I'm not just going to shrug and move on... I'm owed something special, and I will get it.

Good luck to you, LadiKapitan - I hope you are rewarded ten times over!