i often think there's something wrong with me. i hated school, my second year of college was sort of ok, and i've hated uni and wil be glad to see the back of it. all these things are things i'm supposed to enjoy which i just havent. but then... i don't enjoy very many things at all. i rarely get excited about anything. i suppose there's also the small matter of me finding it very difficult to connect with another human being and being cripplingly shy around those i don't connect with but still... enjoyment just isn't what i do.

This post was last modified: 05-16-2012 08:41 PM by nialll.

I went to IU and Norwich universities - both of which I loved because they were great learning environments. I graduated from UVM, which I did not like. The faculty in my department stifled learning.

Maybe another school would suit you better or maybe school isn't for you yet. I was about 26 when I went to university.

There's nothing wrong with you, no.

There's something wrong with the world...

School is a pressure cooker. If you survive that, you'll survive anything. Just concentrate on learning your stuff and getting your diploma, and you'll do a lot better in  "real life" than most of the bullies.

Wow! That is beautiful! Did you come up with that?

This does not help me. Oh god, I'm so worried.  I'm slipping in all of my classes.  The "people" part is better, but not great.  Who decided to create this hell?

Kanner, Asperger, Attwood, Baron-Cohen, Leventhal? What I'm just listing the experts....

Yeah, it popped up when I looked at my children and remembered what it was like!

Actually I enjoyed school, probably because I'm NT and I went to a good school. But I certainly couldn't do it now. Three colleagues in a room is the limit for me if I'm going to do anything useful. And at work I'm not expected to socialize with my colleagues. Even though I get on well with them, socializing with them would be stressful and I much prefer our family and the friends we chose ourselves.

It is no measure of health to be well-adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
Jiddu Krishnamurti

My darling girl, when are you going to understand that being normal is not necessarily a virtue?  It rather denotes a lack of courage!
Aunt Frances Owens (Practical Magic)

Hang in there; It gets better!!

The difficult part over high school is that you do not have much choice to leave.  You are stuck with the same people and teachers for several years.  In college, uni or work - you might be stuck with people who bully but your options to leave are better.   Family bullying is difficult because until you get older you can't leave but you might be able to limit your time with these people such as going to work/school or spending time outside and just coming home when others are going to sleep.

i have to say, on this matter, it really breaks my heart to read about teens in their school years who kill themselves because of the bullying they are subjected to... just because i know how things can change, how life gets so much better, and how if they'd just held on, they'd have found that out just as i have.

i'd imagine people i went to school with would be amazed to see me now, what i look like, the kind of things i'm doing, what a beautiful woman i am with, and so on... i'm nothing like the person i was in school. and i'm glad of that. maybe i grew up and found myself slower than most people but i definitely have and that is what matters.

It's thoughts like those that kept me going. It hurts me more when I discover that the school board did nothing about it, nothing to prevent it, which is normally the case. If I ever get into politics I'm making A LOT of changes to the school system.

Now it's nearly over. I'm on study leave and only have a few exams left. On the 18th of June High school will be but a bad memory, however I will remain scarred by my experiences.

I hope Karma catches up with ALL of them and I hope that it is a lie.

Really great niall, thanks - thanks some_bloke - and sorry for your scars but I hope the "scars" make a beautiful design

Yes, if High School is the best part I feel sorry for those people.  (it is a lie)

High School was basically a living hell

Words of wisdom...

High school is basically a living hell