Note, my native language isn't english, so i'm sorry if my writing isn't that good.

Hi, i'm a 20 years old guy and i've been visiting a psychologist once a week for the last 8 months regarding social phobia.
2 months in, he confirmed my social phobia, but he also told me i could have asperger. Not knowing what it was at the moment, i researched about it and, for my surprise, i had most of the symptoms. He suggested a quiz for me (http://www.rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php) and got a 149 of 200 aspie score. From that point forward, even through it wasn't confirmed, i've diagnosed myself with asperger. Unfortunately, i didn't had much support from my parents regarding the syndrome.

After 4 months, i visited a psychiatrist and, 30 minutes of the first and only visit, he told me i didn't had asperger. After that point, i lost all my parents support regarding asperger, and i can't even mention it in front of them. My psychologist still thinks i may have asperger, but due to the pressure from my parents and the psychiatrist, he can't really decide.
I started getting confused about myself, since what i thought i was, suddenly, i wasn't, all that made sense to me, suddenly, it didn't.
Depression started to kick in, with some help from the social phobia.

Due to social problems and the asperger problems, i gave up university for the time being and spent the last 2 months "trapped" on my comfort zone, in other words, my room, which is being good for me, but its worsening my social phobia problem (I have a lot of complexes and i'm starting developing more of them).

I don't really know what to do, i really think i have asperger (made the quiz again recently and got a 164 out of 200) but everybody, besides my psychologist, still thinks i don't have asperger, all because of the psychiatrist, which i still think he misunderstood me.
Sure, self-diagnosis is enough for must people, but the problem is that i wanted people (at least the family) to understand me better, to know that i'm "weird" and "different" for a reason (especially on the interests part).

Am i just thinking to much? Maybe being professionally diagnosed asperger wouldn't change much and i'm just demanding too much?
I just know that i'm really confused and lost right now, it feels like all the world is negating me .

Stick around here for a bit, If you enjoy it and it suits you here than who cares about the a diagnosis? If we've got the same problems, we still should be able to help each other out anyway.

When I was first diagnosed I was very visibly autistic, but now, I probably wouldn't qualify (unless of course they saw some of my threads here ) but still I'm different and I find solace here.

You've gotta figure out away to free yourself regardless. Have you tried pushing the boundaries a bit? Like, going out in public just a little bit, untill you can manage it a bit more?

To a professional who is used to dealing with very low-functioning people, your aspie traits may not seem severe enough for diagnosis. Is there much awareness of autism/aspergers in your country?

I have no official diagnosis, have never sought one, and I don't need one. The owners/administrators of this site, in fact, strongly recommend against getting an official diagnosis unless you have very good reasons for needing one.

Even if I were to get 10 professional opinions and they all said that I was not autistic, I would still self-identify as autistic as that is what best describes so much of who I am.

This post was last modified: 07-20-2011 06:04 AM by 142857.

Thats why we come here Jilius to a place where we can support each other against a hostile and uncaring world. Much of the credit and foresight here must go to Gareth and others in forming this very unique site.