Why does he love you?  I don't love you, sometimes I do, but more often I'm neutral.  At least you love him back.  I wonder if we'll be able to get that book you were reading.  He told you about one.  He's so nice to you, but you feel so unworthy, don't you?  That's why you can't accept gifts from people.  You feel guilty.  He's breaking that.  You're getting better.  You're still too selfish, that's why you deny things.  You think it will make you worthy of your selfishness, but it won't.  Oh my, you're turning into a regular Gollum, sweetie, the LOTR kind.  Hehe.