my confidence has been very upsy-downsy for a long time; i definitely excel quickly in music and grammar and language...,writing, drawing,and making creative inventions for my personal usage. (such as a stationary bike or etc.) yet the math field has been the big "what if?" for quite a while now. i've been so immersed nowadays in languages, writing, and music and drawing in high detail that i have forgotten to (atleast) persist in math! and this has been going on for several years.