ok this reminds me of last term when everyone and everything was a little bit depressing. i find this song beutifull in an od sort of way. it really reminds me of trying to help a friend of mine who is deppresssed while i was feelling depressed..

Anti-D- The Wombats- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ti1W7Zu8j9k

Please allow me to be your anti- depressant,
I too, am prescribed as freely
As any decongestant

We kick back and let the pills do the talking
People hear a distinct rattle when we’re walking
Then there’s the extra two stone that’s our only guarantee

Our vivid dreams are just like big production movies
They get entangled well within our daily routines
So please re-think or use my dream-on strategy

And please allow me to be your anti- depressant,
I too, am prescribed as freely
As any decongestant

Its hard to smile when your as flattened as a pancake
The only tears come from our heads when we concentrate
Perhaps I'm being unjust or perhaps you agree

Still I've thrown away my citalopram
I need more than what was in those forty miligrams
So cast away with the doctors plans

And please allow me to be your anti- depressant,
I too, am prescribed as freely
As any decongestant

Still I’ve thrown away my citalopram
Although I felt as grim as the reaper man
So cast away with the doctors plans
Like me

"Reflection" (from Mulan), the Christina Aguilera version, reminds me of my entire adolescence. I used to be obsessed with it and listen to it all the time.

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I
Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

Fade To Black by Metallica.
I think everyone feels this way from time to time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLE7hcSgxlM

Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further everyday
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost this can't be real
Can't stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone

No one but me can save myself, but it's too late
Now I can't think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say goodbye

"Fireflies" by Owl City.

I'm not sure how, but I just find that I can really relate to that song. That's why I love listening to it.

I used to feel the same with that song when I lived in England. I always felt like an outcast there. But I feel differently here in Norway, because the kids at school here allow me to be different.

This post was last modified: 10-04-2011 12:03 AM by ETHAN1994.

"Eyes Of A Stranger" by Queeensrÿche.

[page:] Dr. David, telephone please. Dr. David
Dr. Blair, Dr. Blair, Dr. J. Hamilton, Dr. J Hamilton

All alone now
Except for the memories
Of what we had and what we knew
Every time I try to leave it behind me
I see something that reminds me of you
Every night the dreams return to haunt me
Your rosary wrapped around your throat
I lie awake and sweat, afraid to fall asleep
I see your face looking back at me

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare

Is this all that's left
Of my life before me
Straight jacket memories, sedative highs
No happy ending like they've always promised
There's got to be something left for me
And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare (Lies behind my stare)

How many times must I live this tragedy
How many more lies will they tell me
All I want is the same as everyone
Why am I here, and for how long

And I raise my head and stare
Into the eyes of a stranger
I've always known that the mirror never lies
People always turn away
From the eyes of a stranger
Afraid to know what
Lies behind the stare

"Animal" By Disturbed.

I can feel the animal inside
My resolve is weakening
Pounding at the doors of my mind
It's nearly overpowering
I cannot begin to describe
The hunger that I feel again
Run if you intend to survive
For the beast is coming to life
Taking form in the glimmer in this tainted moonlight
Death approaches on this night

For the animal's soul is mine
We will be completed right before your eyes
I have no control this time
And now we both shall dine in Hell tonight

I can hear it calling again
The primal need is filling me
Changes are about to begin
And now my blood is boiling
I can see the fear in your eyes
But you can't bring yourself to scream
Time to shed the mortal disguise
For the beast is coming to life
Taking form in the glimmer of this tainted moonlight
Death approaches on this night

For the animal's soul is mine
We will be completed right before your eyes
I have no control this time
And now we both shall dine in Hell tonight

We begin the hunt and I
Feel the power course, as the creatures take flight
For the kill is close and I will be satisfied
For the smell of fear tonight
Wakes an ancient lust that will not be denied
You're mine

For the animal's soul is mine
We will be completed right before your eyes
I have no control this time
And now we both shall dine in Hell tonight

For the animal's soul is mine
And the world around will never hear your cries
An unholy crime
And now we both shall dine in Hell tonight

and another one

costume party- two door cinema club
2010-2011


You're too young, you're never gonna know why it hit me
When I fell down in silence
No-one thinks what I'm doing is the right way forward
You'll see it's not just a dream now

You think you know, you don't know (x 4)

You're too young, you're never gonna know why it hit me
When I fell down in silence
No-one thinks what I'm doing is the right way forward
You'll see it's not just a dream now

You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't

Know oh oh oh (x4)

It's what you get when you try to educate a black sheep
You can't, you won't, you never will
I'm gonna show you what it takes to see the future
It's hard but not impossible

You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't know
You think you know, you don't

Know oh oh oh (x4)

You think you know oh oh oh
Know oh oh oh
Know oh oh oh
Know oh....

Oh oh, oh ohhhh (repeat)

And I believe this costume party is over
Before it gets started
And I believe this costume party is over

And I believe this costume party is over
Before it gets started
And I believe this costume party is over, over, over

Pink Floyd - Keep Talking

For millions of years mankind lived just like the animals
Then something happenend which unleashed the power of our imagination
We learned to talk

There's a silence around me
I can't seem to think straight
I sit in the corner
And no-one can bother me

I think I should speak now ___________ Why won't you talk to me?
I can't seem to speak now ____________ You never talk to me!
My words won't come out right ________ What are you thinking?
I feel like I'm drowning _____________ What are you feeling?
I'm feeling weak now _________________ Why won't you talk to me?
But I can't show my weakness _________ You never talk to me!
I sometimes wonder ___________________ What are you thinking?
Where do we go from here? _____________ What are you feeling?

It doesn't have to be like this
All we need to do is make sure we keep talking

Why won't you talk to me? _____________ I feel like I'm drowning
You never talk to me! _________________ You know I can't breathe [/color]now
What are you thinking? ________________ We're going nowhere
What are you feeling? _________________ We're going nowhere!

Why won't you talk to me?
You never talk to me!
What are you thinking?
Where do we go from here!

It doesn't have to be like this
All we need to do is make sure we keep talking

bauhaus - silent hedges

following the silent hedges
needing some other kind of madness
looking into purple eyes
sadness at the corners
works of art with a minimum of steel

pure sensation
the beautiful down grade
going to hell again
going to hell again

self confidence leaks
from a thousand wounds
faults of civilisation
burning the private paradise of dreams
minus hands of the electric clock
clock
clock
clock

pure sensation
the beautiful down grade
going to hell again
going to hell again
again
again
again

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_qu...1.9.1l11l0

haunting & beautiful  

'Loser' by Beck?

"Stranger In My Own Skin" by Salim Nourallah describes the asocial period I've been in for a while now. I think it could describe life as an Aspie in general.

Way back when
I was a stranger in my own skin
I'd hide away for hours
In my (?) tower
I'd pretend
That I was someone more romantic
Yeah, someone not so tragic
With (?) of magic

I'm taking off to Mars
In my vinyl car
I'm gonna hit the heights
And maybe hit some stars
And you won't have a clue
What I've been up to

Even when
I tried to crawl out of my own skin
I'd always end up back in
The safety here with this pen
And now I get it
To my family I'm a spaceman
...(line unknown)...
And transmissions from a strange land

I'm taking off to Mars
In my vinyl car
I'm gonna hit the heights
And maybe hit some stars
You won't have a clue
What I've been up to
I'm gonna hang my hat
Underneath the moon
I'm gonna take some pain
And stick it to a tune
So you can't sing along
Get the words all wrong

Strangers everywhere
Stranger right in front of me
I just stand and stare
Who's that looking back at me?

I'm taking off to Mars
In my vinyl car
I'm gonna hit the heights
And maybe hit some stars
And you won't have a clue
What I've been up to
I'm gonna hang my hat
Underneath the moon
I'm gonna take some pain
And stick it to a tune
So you can't sing along
Get the words all wrong

We spend our whole lives never knowing anybody
We spend our whole lives never knowing anybody
Don't spend your whole life never knowing anybody
Never knowing anybody

Way back when
I was a stranger in my own skin

Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace

I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)

I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times I've lied
(So many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)