I don't mind it's strengths but I would like to cure the aspects that make me depressed and cry. I get ridiculed a lot. I wish I was a sociopath. Then I could easily read people and be charming etc.

we had one here. They ended up destroying what could be considered AFFs "golden age".

You mention depression; if you swing wildly from one end of the mood spectrum to the other, you may want to look into Bipolar.

I used to be dispassionate. I never cried as a baby. My dad still brags about it. The when I was 21 I was the opposite. I cry hysterically when offended and things bi=other me more. I am ttold I am not bipolar. I asked my shrinks. They don't think so.

this might be differant for you, but i used to get depressed because of being an aspie, but it wasent the aspergers itself that made me deppresed and cry, it was the way people viewed us and the way it was treated as a medical issue, implying that there was something "wrong" with me and i had to be "fixed". it only got better when i realised it was a social issue rather than a medical one.

Ideally I'd like to keep the "pros" of being Aspie: such as mathematical aptitude including calculating dates (the Declaration of Independence was signed on a Thursday), long-term memory, and the ability to appreciate certain things due to my sensors such as color.

I'd like to get rid of the aspects that result(ed) in me being (destructively) criticized, ostracized, scapegoated, mocked and bullied.  I have a need to be "social" just like NTs.  Only I socialize a bit differently and my social needs aren't the same.  (reference Tony Atwood's cup vs. bucket analogy).

I was a "happy baby" myself.  My earliest memories; very abstract; are pleasant memories.  I don't remember crying alot until I was nearing two years old.

At two, I was sensitive to alot of things: physical shock (such as falling), loud noises, and shampoo in my eyes are some of the things.  Of course I cried if I got slapped or spanked.  When my middle brother was born, I couldn't understand why he could cry all the time and not get spanked; whereas oftetimes if I'd cry (fussing about something), I'd get spanked.

As an elementary school kid I cried more often than my peers.  I cried if I got picked on, hurt, if something was disturbing me (like not winning in a class raffle when most of the other class won prizes; i.e. more pupils than prizes), or if I was scared about something.

I think in general, Aspies are happy as babies.  Sadly this is; more often than not; the happiest period of an aspie's life.  I think Aspies have the potential to have a very fulfilling life if opportunities permit.

When I was younger, I always thought that I had an attitude problem.  If only I "snapped out of it", "got my act together", "got with the program", "didn't think so negatively", "acted normal", "worked harder", etc., then my life would improve.  Somehow I always seemed to come up deficient of these virtues I was supposed to live up to.

I was kind of the opposite. I was always hearing from parents and teachers and annoying peers that I needed to change and be different and 'to have friends you have to be a friend' and 'just be yourself' and you "have low self esteem". I used to tell my  parents over and over and over 'I don't have a problem with who I am! It's everyone else that won't accept me! I have great self esteem- I'm just terrible, terrible, terrible at figuring out how to be someone else and I'm not going to try anymore!" They didn't listen, and they still wish I was more like them. My mother joined a ladies club I consider passively racist and signed me up- even when I wouldn't go- she pays the membership for me every year just hoping I will. How off is that? I love her, truly, but come on!

I really don't get this as it seems to me none of us have a problem its some NTs who have a problem when they can't force us to be them. Shouldn't those who have a real problem be the ones who need to change?

I would like to get rid of the negative stuff about my AS.

I hear what you're saying- if you're saying just because we don't want to be forced to conform that doesn't mean there aren't things we personally would like to improve about ourselves. Isn't that part of what makes us human? That we can understand enough to be dissatisfied and want to change? If we don't aren't we suffering needlessly?

The only thing  I would get rid off would be society's very rigid norms and values which inhibit anyone from acting the slightest way deviant. That is the only reason NTs perceive us as being as they say "developmentally disabled".

People People People

For goodness sakes! Consider this. You only want rid of the negative aspects because you have a label and therefore can put a reason on your personality. NTs have all the same frustratuions too, although perhaps not as markedly usually. But they do. A human is a complex. Do away with the bad things and what happens then? You are a genius? Or they get replaced by other bad things, so you try again and find the amount of bad things differently arranged ... so you try again .. and again .. and again ... sometimes worse ... sometimes better ... but never ever ever resolved.

Maybe its because I'm forty (odd!) but even when I was young I had the wonderful arrogance to say ... to f**k with it ... I am what I am and the world can get on with it. Without tears there would be no smiles. Remember that. Love yourself and uderstand that it is only in the shadows that you can see the light shining on or from the other parts ... OF YOU!

I will say it too: People People People

Honestly, there is nothing wrong about being and Asperger, there is no such thing as "negative stuffs" in Asperger. It happens that we should never ever forget that before being Aspergers, we are still Humans with defects and qualities. So we get depressed because people (oh, them again) makes us feel bad. It's their problem not ours! It's them not us!

Now, just to feel the drama of situation, think: suppose it's a different world where Aspergers are considered "normal" and neurotipicals are a minority group. How do you think we would treat them? I don't think most of us would be nice for long with people who can barely understand the most basics of science or logic. Soon we would end up losing our patience and treat them like "mentally incapacitated" or something like that.

So, the key is we are who we are and they are who they are, but... because this world is theirs, they make non-wrote consent rules according to their own taste and flavour. And one of these instinctively acepted rules neurotypicals made says, "if you are not one of us, you are one of them. You are enemy!"

Nevertheless, if we start wishing to be more like then just to avoid being rejected for being different, I have news for you: you are alrealdy acting like them, because all they to is motivated by a constant struggle to be accept by the others.

There are times when I am glad I have Asperger's and wouldn't change it, but there are other times when I'm so frustrated and lonely I'd give anything to be an NT.

From a logical perspective, the cons far outweigh the pros of Asperger's so I definitely wouldn't mind a cure.