Aspies For Freedom

This is just me blabbering and wondering if anyone has AS on here. Don't read this unless you want to hear me bitch n moan at 1 in the morning.

So even though i haven't actually been screened for Asperger's Syndrome i think i may have it. I was reading about the symptoms and checking out what some people said about how it feels to be someone with AS from this site and i'm almost positive i have it. at first i thought i had Social Anxiety Disorder due to my severe anti-social behavior that my parents said was just a phase... 4 years ago. As time goes by, my symptoms for AS are becoming more and more evident. I never look at anyones eyes, i always stare down at their shirt or arm. My dad once asked me furiously if i loved him or my mom or anyone because it seems as if i love no one (which i guess is true?) I'm not hateful or anything like that. Just sorta bleh. One time i went to this school and i acted like a complete loner and never talked to anyone, my recent school i just changed my personality and tried to act extremely happy and laugh-at-anything type of guy. I never go out to parties or socialize (as much as my sister tried). A lot of people think i'm mean when i'm just being honest. Although i've learned about certain things that you shouldn't say to a person no matter how truthful you want to be :lol: . I thought i was suffering from depression for the longest time but i was never really miserable, now i'm starting to be miserable because i want to be more like everyone else you know, the whole "lets date and pretend i wanna hear what you wanna say, woman." I have an extreme obsession over computers that i cant seem to get enough of. Oh yeah everyone that knows me at my current school thinks im weird I should ask some of my "friends" why they think i'm weird. As i am living with my grand parents at the moment, my grand mother tells me often that i forget about the world around me when i'm on the computer, im usually on the computer til i can barely keep my eyes open.
I am taking two math courses next year simultaneously because a. i didnt pay attention my last year and failed math and english due to my thinking about other things and b. i think i can handle Alg. 2 and Geometry. Hmm philosophy is good too.
I also read something about autistic folks being verbally abused when they were younger. I'm in the same boat with that, dad did that a lot.

That's just the tip of the iceberg, i'm sure you dont want to hear anymore.

So what do you guys think? Might i have it?

As im typing this im flossing my teeth with one of those little toothpick/flosser combos. I've been doing this since oh...12:30am and its now 2AM... dunno if that helps contribute.

What you say is ofcourse the classic traits, but apparently people are negative to diagnose people over the internet, but I don't see a big problem in looking for similar personalities or support here for problems that maybe aspies can relate to.

What is your computer obsession?

I'm really not sure to be honest. I just do a lot of web browsing, i like to learn about computers about the operating systems (windows and linux currently), programming languages, i learned html when i was 12, Javascript when i was 13, and slacking on PHP since then I can do all sorts of things such as network penetration, decrypting passwords with John the Ripper (program). Basically i like everything about computers.

did you take thegeeksyndrome test?

Yes i took it last night i don't quite remember the results but basically it said i did have Aspies and i believeit said i should get screened for it. I also took the Aspie-quiz which said:
Motor difficulty 4.2 Average
Perception difference 8.0 Above average
Aspie talent 8.4 Above average
Aspie disability 8.2 Above average
Social difference 9.0 Above average
Aspie instinct 7.6 Above average
Aspie communication 6.0 Average
Neurotypical communication difficulty 7.5 Above average

Your Aspie score: 152 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 42 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie

We have the same obsession then, I like everything related to computers.
Linux it's one of my interest. I have a collection   I currently use Arch linux. I don't know any computer language, I didn't have internet until few years ago and didn't have the time. I plan to learn this summer C++

You are good or bad at math?

I'm very good at math if i pay attention, but i usually forget how to do algebra and more theoretical mathematics if i dont practice problems often. When i was in 9th grade my comprehension and vocabulary skills were tested over 12th grade but i failed English I the first time and barely passed English II.