Aspies For Freedom

I have a cold sore on the corner of my mouth. :evil:

~I just looked at the emoticons. Awesome, awesome set.

Parts of New Zealand are known for their high winds. So yes, it is frequently like that.

It's wet, I'm wet, it never seems to stop raining lately.  I'm turning into a drip.  I wanna see some SUNSHINE darnit!

Hail to Amy, the Aspergian Goddess, I am in your eternal debt.
Thank you!

25 days of rain and counting!!!!
We're now at number 2 for the record of a run of rainy days.  The record, at 33 days was set in 1953.
I'm so wweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttt

1-13  Now day 26 and counting.

"Don't return the shout"??
Is this an aussie joke?

--energeia the wet--

Oh okay--I imagine people do it here (I'm not part of the bar crowd).  I've never heard that expression, though.  Here, it would be something like "another round"

Rain...day #27.  Back from errands and drying out.

There's a hair in my lasagne!  :evil:

An interesting word, aspersion: a damaging or derogatory remark???  :shock:
It's almost like asperger.

:lol: I don't know, but I hate hair.  :grin:

Why can't humans be totally hairless like Thor*?

My mother made the lasagne. It's her specialty: lasagne with hair and bugs.

Tomorrow is a big day and I'm scared to death! :shock:
My first meeting with the people who are going to decide whether I get treatment for transsexuality or get committed into a mental hospital is tomorrow (is that a grammatically correct sentence?). I'm going in boy mode... And I haven't told my parents about my transsexuality. A lot of things could go wrong. Maybe my parents throw me out of the house today when I tell them. Let's hope its just that and not a naquadah reactor blowing up at my face. :roll:


* = The grey alien in Star Gate.

Thank you!

Biologically I'm male, but I have a female gender-identity and an androgynous personality. :grin: Or something like that....
Correct terms to use would be: woman, transwoman, male-to-female transsexual (don't like that one much), or any other that says my gender is female. (you might already know that gender is social, sex is biological)

You are a nice person, Alison. I wish you long life and prosperity! :grin:

Tuuli  

Some good ways back in this thread becca wrote:

The good news is that sooner than later this planet will shake us all off like so many fleas, and then it will take it no more than 50 to 100 years to get itself back into shape. ANd then it will be many many millions of years before another species evolves to muck it up wthe way we do

OK, everybody, duck & cover, here comes a big bag of wind... :lol:

It's 1:36 a.m. where I am and I'm so frustrated by my inability to figure out what the hell is "off" about me.  :mad:  I've been reading psychology stuff since my teens, going to therapy, am on pretty good ADD meds that make me more focused & efficient, but still, every time I freeze up at having to learn something new, every time my very efficient & practical boss gets frustrated by my freezing up, every time I hit another dead end in my search for a dx or an explanation for my spaciness/lack of motivation/underachieving, I wonder if my parents were right all along, if maybe I am just a spoiled lazy brat, period.  I just took some online tests and came out more NT than aspie, which is not a total shock, since I've thought & said all along that I feel I'm diagnostically "in between," but damn...I don't have sensory problems as I've heard them described by others here, but I feel I use my imagination to fend off people & outside stimuli anyway.  The difference with me is that I live so much IN MY HEAD that when there's too much input or stimulation coming at me, I experience it as an invasion of my MENTAL space, my train of thought; rather than having physical symptoms, I feel mentally overloaded.  I have always kept one foot in "real life" and the other in my own imaginary space; if I fully engaged my mind in "real life," I believe I would feel intolerably crowded & besieged.  The trouble, of course is that I will never achieve anything near my full potential unless I engage more fully in the real world.  But I have always kept the world at bay, largely through my ever-present "verbal clutter" as I call it---my inner train of monologues, dialogues, comedy routines, playing songs in my head, all of it acting as a kind of defense to keep too much outside stimuli from coming in at once.  At least, that's how I understand it now, after having lived 40 years with this brain & not having anything else to compare it to.  I don't remember a time that I haven't felt distanced from my surroundings, and I suspect I've been creating that distance myself, all my life, without knowing why, until now.  All I can say is that if I stopped the distancing behavior, if I took a pill that prevented me from spacing out or doing my silent verbalizing, I just think other people's energy would feel like TOO MUCH.  This probably sounds nutty; it even sounds nutty to me.  This is just the best way I can explain it.  I'm not really an aspie despite the fact that I relate to some aspie traits, I'm not significantly changed by ADD meds although they help, I've never shown any evidence of specific learning disabilities, I can't find a dx that fits, but here I am, not quite suited to life on this planet & baffled as to what to do next.  I'm not even depressed...just STUCK.  There seems not to be a name for whatever-it-is that I have.  AAGGHH!  :mad:  :evil:  OK, rant over.  If ANY of this makes ANY sense to ANYONE, first of all, thank you for your patience in having read it, and if you have any suggestions, I'd love to hear 'em.  OK, I will now exit the thread & get some sleep!  Thank you, AFF people, for tolerance!!     (better now)

Also witnessed, CBC--read my sig :lol:

Argh.  My school schedule alows me virtualy no time to go to my locker.  We have a house system, with most classes being taught in each house and if not neighberhood(two houses).  My locker is in my house, but all of my classes are on the other side of the school.  It is actualy the greatest posible distance from my most of my classes.  The only times that I will be near my locker is when I go to health or gym in the basement, not enough time in 4 minutes to go to my locker and get back across the school with over 2000 people walking at a time.  I will be in my neighborhood for tutoring the last period of the day.  Well looks like I'll have a Freshman backpack (freshman are notourious for craming as much into a backpack as posible, and thus are dispised for doing this).  Well I guess it fits because I'll be in a freshman class thanks to geting shut out of health 2 years in a row.  Grr.