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Hi everyone, my name is Becky, I'm 13 and I come from England.
Well I'm here because I recently found out about Asperger's on Wikipedia and after some research I discovered that I have a load of symptoms described. (I like doing research on things like this, I discovered I had Selective Mutism by researching the condition on Wikipedia in February).
So... when I was in junior school I had 1 friend, and after moving into the secondary school (high school in America? I don't know) I gained two more. However, I'm pretty much always alone, and I mostly prefer it that way. If I have friends sleep round, like I did two days ago, I'll get annoyed with them within a few hours and wish they were gone so I could be on my own. I spend loads of my free time on my computer because I don't like 'hanging out' with people. I've always been interested in going on the computer rather then being with my friends, but I don't like telling people that as I think they'll assume I haven't got a life or something.
I hate being partners with people in school, for example in science I never do any group work so my teacher and the people I'm supposed to be in the group with will get annoyed with me. I get upset easily by their comments. People are always making comments about me, like just the other day someone remarked I'd one day kill myself with prompted everyone to laugh for some reason.
I can't make eye contact. When I do something, like make a presentation at school, my friends will tell me that I act like eveything on it has to be perfect. If my room is untidy I find it hard to go on the computer. Recently I've noticed I appear to have some sort of lack in common sense, for example if someone tells me to do something simple I'll get confused and won't do it until they explain it step-by-step. I can't think of an example of this even though it happens everyday.
I'm terrible at PE. I have bad balance and I can't do simple things like catch balls. I get annoyed so easily, for example if someone say I did something wrong like break a rule in a sport I'll get annoyed and just stop playing altogether.
Some other things are:
- If people say 'well done' to me or something I'll feel annoyed or angry for some reason. When something happens, like it's someones birthday or they've done something good, I'll find it hard to say 'happy birthday' or 'congratulations' or whatever. Also, if at school we have to tell someone how to improve their work or something I'll find it hard to say something as I'll feel I'm being harsh or just mean.
- When my parents try to hug me or kiss me I'll pull away and again feel irritated.
- I trust people a lot, and I forgive easily. For example my friends had been 'bullying' me a lot, throwing my head band thing out of windows and making nasty comments, trying to force me to smoke (which I refused to do) etc, but when they had to write a letter of apology I just forgave them like that.
- I'm serious most of the time
- I never put my hand up in class and when I have to go into groups I won't discuss things with other people about whatever it is that we're doing
- I have this MASSIVE privacy thing, if someone walks in the room while I'm on the computer I'll turn the screen off even if it's nothing bad, and I can't go on my PS2 in case someone will walk in
- This is really embarrasing, but I have really bad hygeine.
- Another embarrasing thing is that I couldn't do simple things like use a knife and fork until I was about 10, and I can't even tie my shoelaces now
- I bottle stuff up a lot, and I find it hard to talk about myself
- I interrupt people a lot, however if someone interrupts me I'll get really stressed at them
- Rubbish at small talk, and when I do chat it's always about myself
- I have a load of anger towards other people
- I won't do my best at stuff as I feel I won't get any recognition or people will do better then me at it
- I'm REALLY sarcastic and negative
- I never do homework
- If I lose at something I'll get really, really fed up
- I have no motivation to do stuff which doesn't interest me
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE can anyone tell me if it seems like I have asperger's or not, am I just a bit weird or something?
I can relate to many of the things you mention, and some others I recognize from other's stories.

klaxons Wrote:
Hi everyone, my name is Becky, I'm 13 and I come from England... ... So... when I was in junior school I had 1 friend, and after moving into the secondary school (high school in America? I don't know)...

Americanly speaking....My youngest teen is in her first year of "secondary" school. My oldest teen is in her first year of "High" school...

Some districts are different, but ours begins with "Kindergarten" = 1/2 days. Then "Elementary" = Grades 1-6, then "Secondary" also known as "Junior-High" = 7-9, "High" = 10-12. Then off to college...

klaxons Wrote:
...PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE can anyone tell me if it seems like I have asperger's or not, am I just a bit weird or something?

Hah! ...you got "it" it sounds like... I thought one of my daughters wrote your posting thread!!! Smile there's a couple of stories I shared about them in the parenting forum and on WP if you're curious...

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