Aspies For Freedom

i got 2 and 3 on Wolfys version- the dots were not always entirely gone but greyish. i was aware of the way my brain felt at the time they disappeared and i guess this was the hypnagogic state described above.

i do feel as if i am asleep but awake or having deja vu or jamais vu experiences. This is how i felt in my brain about 40% of my time up until i was twelve. until i started think there was something wrong with my head and trying to focus my attention. i thought i was having some sort of epilepsy but if i tried very hard then i could stop it. it took a lot of my energy. being different attracted attention which i dont like so i couldnt be different.
i wish hadn't stopped the hypnagogic state. i miss that state my brain went into spontaneously and if i had been more determined about staying there, maybe someone would have realised something was different earlier and i would not have been misdiagnosed with a psychosis at 20 because i couldn't keep up with some things in life. i am late to come to AS at 30 but i am glad to find explanations. i know my brain needs to do that sort of thing.
if anyone has looked at those repeating *magic pictures* the same brainfeel happens. Or any repeating visual or sensory stimuli. it seems rhythm is key to adjusting attention. Is autism a really out of it state? Consciousness can be a paradox.
has anyone tried transcranial magetic stimulation? portable machine has been developed for migraine- incidentally anyone xperience migraine? (or has that already been polled? for give me it is in excess of 30 degrees celcius here and it make my brain mushyvegetable)
becca

Thanks Lili Marlene. the trouble is the doctors do their best with limited technology. we can't yet get safely into the brain to figure out 100%what is happening. when you cannot communicate properly they cannot understand. it may seem strange, (even tho i get very frustrated at the mental health system here in NZ and all the people stuck in it) i don't regret my experiences because i have learned a lot and formed strong beliefs because i have had to figure out why people treat other people like products on a conveyor belt. Learning theory of mind consciously means we always keep it in mind.  a person who is more NT takes such things for granted.  I have met so many people with illnes who i admire very much too.
Even tho you and i and others here can probably spot an aspie a mile away, we are all wonderfully different too and don't fit easily into diagnostic criteria. It is easier for the system to diagnose and disorder rather than a unique individual.
so i have a desire to help other people who are stuck in the system. i am trying to get a psych degree to speak the right language. Like *know your enemy* but i don't want to beat the system, i just want people to know that its not the only choice. what doesn't kill us makes us stronger...
becca

That is interesting, I was wondering how this links in with visual perception. I tried it again with tinted lenses yesteday and only got 1 each time.

Since they mainly stabilise my visual field (and I would hope, NOT mess with brain switching!  :shock: ), this would perhaps show at least *some* indication that visual processing is measured here, rather than genuine brain switching. (Still only had one dot disappearing mind you, but at least no flickering this time!)