05-01-2007, 10:06 PM
05-02-2007, 02:35 PM
Since it was suggested that I have AS (no official diagnosis yet) I don't think that my AS traits have got worse, I think I have just become more aware of them.
For example I am more aware of my stimming (something I do continuously) because now I know what it is. Before I knew about stimming I always just thought of myself as having a lot of quirky repetitive actions. I am more aware of my lack of eye contact, lack of theory of mind, lack of empathy, difficulty understanding emotions and my pedantic use of language. I had all these traits since childhood, long before I found out about AS, but now I know about AS I am far more aware of my traits.
For example I am more aware of my stimming (something I do continuously) because now I know what it is. Before I knew about stimming I always just thought of myself as having a lot of quirky repetitive actions. I am more aware of my lack of eye contact, lack of theory of mind, lack of empathy, difficulty understanding emotions and my pedantic use of language. I had all these traits since childhood, long before I found out about AS, but now I know about AS I am far more aware of my traits.
05-02-2007, 07:30 PM
Maybe it's just that by getting the AS diagnosis you feel you have been given 'permission' to act this way. Maybe subconsciously you always wanted to organise your plates geometrically, or avoid pavement cracks, you just didn't do it because you thought it would make you look 'weird'. Now you know you have AS, you don't have to feel self-conscious about looking 'crazy' in front of your family.
I know that I definitely don't feel as self-conscious and ashamed about my AS traits now that I know why I do them. In fact maybe my AS traits have got a little more pronounced in the last few months, but only because I am not always trying to hide them now.
I know that I definitely don't feel as self-conscious and ashamed about my AS traits now that I know why I do them. In fact maybe my AS traits have got a little more pronounced in the last few months, but only because I am not always trying to hide them now.
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