03-19-2007, 04:52 PM
Hello. I posted this in the introductory thread, but thought later on that this sub-forum was the more appropriate place for this. My apologies for having posted this twice, but I felt it was inportant to get an opinion from those who know more about Asperger's than I do.
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I'm 19, male, and still debating on whether I should get a professional diagnosis. Everything I've read, everything I've ever experienced throughout my life screams Aspergers.
I think I'm scared of being labled as autistic. I was diagnosed with ADD but interestingly enough, the doctor kept elaborating that ADD != ADHD and that I was unusually calm. It was just my mind liked to wander... a lot. In an odd way, I DO want to be diagnosed as having Aspergers. My reasoning for this is that I don't want to be someone who just looked at a bunch of online reading material and then just announced he has said condition.
It's strange because everything I do can be traced back to this condition. I will have a huge focus on something for several weeks, even months and do nothing else. I'll even try to take charge of a subject I know can not really be taken more charge of. Case in point: CyberNations. An online game in which you manage a country. I started playing it, and although you need only check it once a day, I soon found myself engrossed in it. The thing about my fascination with this was that doing this got me nowhere further within said game.
The traits assosiated with aspergers on many of these online tests make me cringe when I realize that they match mine. Here's a list of what I mean:
*I like cold weather.
*I do not like being touched; If anyone touches me, I have the overwhelming urge to kick thier ass.
*I tend to notice patterns in EVERYTHING.
*Numerous social inadequecies. (My freind's grandmother died, and after he insisted it wasn't a big deal, I said, "hm, she was pwned". Oops.)
*I can't make new friends; I've had the same core group of people for five years or more.
*If something does not have my interest, I struggle to have anything to do with it.
*Long ago, when I was talking to my high school principle, he noted something about me I never realized. When describing a sitaution that could happen to anybody, I specificly said "he or she" when "he" would have sufficed.
*I don't care for "normal" music unless I like it. I listen to a lot of 80's type things.
*My clothes? I HATE sweaters. I loathe them. I only like loose golf t-shirts. Anything else and I'm maddened for as long as I'm wearing it, tugging and squirming in a futile effort to get comfortable.
*I hate water, but love snow. Go figure.
*I don't care how I look when I play video games in public. I'll do it because I want to do it.
*I'm squirmish about getting a haircut, I suppose that has to do with not being touched and whatnot.
Even when I tried to counteract everything I've read with the simple fact that I like to do things with my freinds, it was never "hang out" and do nothing. Oh no, there had to be something to do and only with that specific core group.
My own freinds have pointed out my social inadequecies and furthermore I have been reluctant to post here. When I found this place. Not knowing where to start I sort of hobbled from thread to thread growing more overwhelmed at the things in common between myself and what I was reading on this thread. I even found reading everything here so much easier on the eyes. The language and syntax being used here makes it so much easier to read. On other forums, (mostly gaming related), I have to struggle as I read. I read perfectly well and extremely fast, but understanding what's being said is often a chore.
I don't know, is what I said typical of someone with Aspergers?
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I'm 19, male, and still debating on whether I should get a professional diagnosis. Everything I've read, everything I've ever experienced throughout my life screams Aspergers.
I think I'm scared of being labled as autistic. I was diagnosed with ADD but interestingly enough, the doctor kept elaborating that ADD != ADHD and that I was unusually calm. It was just my mind liked to wander... a lot. In an odd way, I DO want to be diagnosed as having Aspergers. My reasoning for this is that I don't want to be someone who just looked at a bunch of online reading material and then just announced he has said condition.
It's strange because everything I do can be traced back to this condition. I will have a huge focus on something for several weeks, even months and do nothing else. I'll even try to take charge of a subject I know can not really be taken more charge of. Case in point: CyberNations. An online game in which you manage a country. I started playing it, and although you need only check it once a day, I soon found myself engrossed in it. The thing about my fascination with this was that doing this got me nowhere further within said game.
The traits assosiated with aspergers on many of these online tests make me cringe when I realize that they match mine. Here's a list of what I mean:
*I like cold weather.
*I do not like being touched; If anyone touches me, I have the overwhelming urge to kick thier ass.
*I tend to notice patterns in EVERYTHING.
*Numerous social inadequecies. (My freind's grandmother died, and after he insisted it wasn't a big deal, I said, "hm, she was pwned". Oops.)
*I can't make new friends; I've had the same core group of people for five years or more.
*If something does not have my interest, I struggle to have anything to do with it.
*Long ago, when I was talking to my high school principle, he noted something about me I never realized. When describing a sitaution that could happen to anybody, I specificly said "he or she" when "he" would have sufficed.
*I don't care for "normal" music unless I like it. I listen to a lot of 80's type things.
*My clothes? I HATE sweaters. I loathe them. I only like loose golf t-shirts. Anything else and I'm maddened for as long as I'm wearing it, tugging and squirming in a futile effort to get comfortable.
*I hate water, but love snow. Go figure.
*I don't care how I look when I play video games in public. I'll do it because I want to do it.
*I'm squirmish about getting a haircut, I suppose that has to do with not being touched and whatnot.
Even when I tried to counteract everything I've read with the simple fact that I like to do things with my freinds, it was never "hang out" and do nothing. Oh no, there had to be something to do and only with that specific core group.
My own freinds have pointed out my social inadequecies and furthermore I have been reluctant to post here. When I found this place. Not knowing where to start I sort of hobbled from thread to thread growing more overwhelmed at the things in common between myself and what I was reading on this thread. I even found reading everything here so much easier on the eyes. The language and syntax being used here makes it so much easier to read. On other forums, (mostly gaming related), I have to struggle as I read. I read perfectly well and extremely fast, but understanding what's being said is often a chore.
I don't know, is what I said typical of someone with Aspergers?