Aspies For Freedom

People think I'm weird, I would prefer it if they just ignored me, than give me stupid looks or comments.

"Why are you so sensitive?"
"Why are you so insensitive towards others?"
"You read a lot."
"You're full of useless facts."
"Why don't you go out more?"
"Don't you like being with other people?"
"You spend too much time alone, go out and have fun you might like it."
"Stop tapping your feet or pencil."
"You really should stop being a picky eater."
"You're psycho."
"You're insane."
"Why don't you look at me when I'm talking to you?"
"You have all this information stored up in your head, why can't you get a job and put it to practical use? You're not stupid."
"You're stupid."
"You're so embarassing to be near at times."
"Freak".
"Nerd".
"Too obsessive."
"Shy".
"What don't you understand about what I said? I was just teasing."
"Stop being so paranoid."
"Too obsessive."
"You're so smart, why are you wasting it?"
"You're lazy."
"You're just plain wierd."

I had those ones too.

Also-

You're an alien.
Why cant you be normal for once.
Why cant you smile just to be polite?
You look too serious.
You're anti-social, thats why you have no friends.
You're so impolite.
You're simple.
I know you are depressed/anxious/afraid but its no excuse for sleeping so much/staying in the house/not trying to make friends.

Are these people in school Cat?

Some people don't like me - i don't care
And that is all i have to say

I really sympathize Uschi.

One of the most damaging things about hearing these criticisms so often is that they kind of repeat in the brain, so if I do something its like the inner voice of parent/teacher/spouse saying "oh you messed that up now, stupid".

"You're retarded"
"Why do you speak like that?"
"You speak funny"
"You're insane"
"Someone should lock you up in a mental institution"
"You take everything too seriously"
"Stop being melodramatic"
"Who cares?" (After I say just about anything   )
"You don't have a boyfriend/you don't want to get married, I hope you're not gay" (Usually my mom says this)
"Why don't you like dressing up, are you gay?" (My mother again  :roll: )
"It's your fault for not having friends."
"All your problems are your fault"
"You're being too sensitive"
"You're selfish" (Only my mom... everyone else seems to think I'm REALLY nice)
"Does your mother force you to read books?"
"You read too much"
"You know too many useless facts"
"Wow! You can really read that quickly?"
"You express yourself better with writing than speaking" (Only my aunt said this and I love that comment so much)
"I heard that she has cancer/is premature/(enter some crappy disability/disease here)/
"You're so serious"
"You act like a robot, no emotion"
"Why are you always so worried?"
"You're boring" (Nobody says this but I always get this impression from everyone)
"You use the computer too much"
"Don't lock the door! I don't want you doing anything crazy in there" (My mom thinks that I'm doing something suspicious, really I'm not. She can search my whole damn room for proof if she really wants to know so badly)
"You embarrase me in front of my friends" (My sister doesn't directly say this but I get the message)
"You're weird"
"You're unusually nice." (I don't do anything! I don't know why people say this...)
"You're so quiet"
"She's so smart"
"You take everything literally!"
"You don't care about anything" (I actually care about a lot of stuff, just not the same things as NTs)
"Why are you speaking so loud?"
"You think too much"
"Why can't you act normal?"
"What the hell are you doing?"
"What the hell is your problem?"
"Insane bitch!"
"You don't care about your appearance at all!"
"Why don't you cry about something that's worth crying about?"
"Your problems aren't real problems."
"Shut up! Nobody cares about what you have to say!"
"You're too shy"
"You should talk with your family more"
"It offends people when you don't go out of your way to talk to them."
"Don't make fun of her, she might kick your ass or kill you!"

There is more but that's all I can think of. 90% of the people I know ignore me and 4% of them are either mean, shallow or annoying. I think I only enjoy about 1% (or even less) of society in general.

the one that stuck in my head was "spacker"
used to get called that by my older brother

My college class said "we're all sick of her" to the tutor right in front of me.
This was last year, and it was a class for supposedly mature students of women in the 30's and 40's. :evil:

I was Stella, and I left the course and missed taking my exam, they had been bitchy and sarcastic with me all the way through, they were in a group. I didnt know what else to do.
This was before we started AFF, I think I would have the confidence now to defend myself.

"Sometimes I wonder whether we married a time-warped version of the same guy. I am just glad I left when I did

It seems certain types of people are attracted to Aspies and other "different" people they perceive as "weak", and they build their self esteem on having us around to kick or insult :evil: "

I felt the same thing.

Thats the annoying thing, not knowing what something thinks but knowing its bad, and trying to work out what they are thinking and why.

Hi Chris, by housemates I assume you mean at a University, what are they doing that you object to?

It sounds irritating, and having to share accomodation with random people is a trial in itself.

It will all be over soon....the election that is! :wink:

Here is what I believe many normal type people percieve me as off line.

-an idiot
-Agnry at all liveing things (not that me being stocked or harassed over the phone is considered my reason for being upset. Naw! They always think it's all about them, them, them. Always THEM!)
-ugly (usualy from some children)
-Hermit
-Desperate for acceptance  
-lazy (regardless of my best efforts)
-in need of mental help
-out of control (that ticks me off very much right there)
-mentaly slow (just because I don't make friends in five seconds)
-anti social
-shy and silent (because I'm such an aspie girl)

Honestly I do get very angry, upset, and loose a little control when people push me way too far on purpose. My father is one person who did verbaly push me beyond the breaking point a few times. Then he blamed me for scratching my own face, beating myself to feel better, or breaking something, even if I broke it by accident. I am somwhat of a hermit because I have been verbaly attacked for so much of my life.

I have been complimented a few times online, and it felt good because people just don't ever compliment me elsewhere.

That's mean of them. Some girls do play with toys cars. Me and my NT sister played with toy cars and transformers. We used to be Transformer fans, as much as we were little fans of My Little Ponies, Barbie, Gi Joe, etc.. Gender for toys were of little concern to my family. To them a toy was just a toy, and I agree with that.