Aspies For Freedom

What do other people think of you? I have a very mixed image other people get. Here's the most common ones: Strange, dumb, mean (? This one I never get..), immoral, or brat. Occassionally a teacher thinks I'm bright, and people online seem to have a better impression overall.

At one time or another people have used all the following terms about me:

odd, eccentric, strange, wierd, peculiar, bizarre,

All the various ways of saying you're insane, some uglier than others.

And not forgetting the latest word in political correctness:

Stella, you're just different!

What me?  :o

Stella McQuack

And not forgetting: Insult Not Otherwise Specified!

You're a freak
You're weird
You're a sicko
You're a fag
You're a smartass
You're a ***
You're so smart (said with nice intentions, but a little patronising)
Why don't you walk properly?
Why do your hands shake?
Why don't you talk to people?
Why are you so quiet?
I hate you
Everybody hates you
You suck
Nobody wants to be friends with you
You'll never have any friends
You're a pedophile
I wish you'd die
Go away
@#$% off you fag

This is just a small sample of what I've been consistantly recieving all my life.  In assemblies at school, people fight over not having to sit next to me (this is only boys).  I always sit with a circle of empty desks around me, except occasionly girls, they're a lot more accepting.  I'm sure aspie girls might have had different experiences though...

Very different, dreamer! The opposite is true as far as which gender is more accepting to me.

Maybe it's always the opposite sex to you who are nicest.  Boys are absolutely horrible to me, but girls are usually very nice.

Well, my New Year's resolution was to raise Autism Awareness. So I typed out a page that said
"I have Autism
I am not ***
I don't want a "cure"
I am not defective

http://www.aspiesforfredom.com

(little graphic that says "I am different, Not diseased")"

Now almost everybody except 3 people are avoiding me like the plague. The same freakin' people who spoke to me yesturday won't today! I am sick of this, sick of them! andpeople wonder what made peopel go spcho, sit like this did! waht the f8k do you not get about a dont' have a diesease!!!

School and the street! The joggers who I normally walk by and wave at went *all* the way to the other side of the street to jog!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know how you feel    About 50% of NTs are just horrible to me, and the other 50% just ignore me.  I just get so sick of my life I decide to 'be myself' like so many people suggest.  If just for the joy of freaking those stupid NTs out.  If it wasn't for those bastards I might be at least contented with life.  People just suck.

Everybody except 3?  Everybody except my family avoids me.  I haven't had a real friend since I was nine (and since then, only two lousy friends for a couple of fleeting moments). And my psychiatrist thinks I talk and act well...  Christmas/New Year sucks, everybody's happy, or trying to act happy.  It's like one long cocktail party, with people standing around chatting and forcing themselves to smile.

What's more, my sculpture just screwed up.  I really feel worthless when my art goes wrong, I haven't got much else...  No one understands anything...

Pardon my disgruntled moanings

I forgot a few interesting ones about maturity:

You are sooooooooo immature
act your age, not your shoe size
My little child! (said in the most condescending tone imaginable by my husband)
Mom, I think I am more mature than you are
Grow up!
you're old enough to know better
you're so childish!

I agree, Amy. Since those are the things I heard my WHOLE LIFE, I find myself saying to myself often, "How could I be so dumb!" Or "How stupid can I be", or "I should have known better". And many more of the same type of thing.

It is almost impossible to forgive myself for mistakes that others blame me for. And finally having the AS diagnosis has really not changed much at all.

Now, instead of hearing, "you should know better", I hear "AS is no excuse for that kind of behaviour". While, if any of them would care to inform themselves about AS, they would find that AS fully explains why I am that way, and can't help it. But they don't want to know, because they might have to admit that they have been treating me badly for something  that isn't my fault. And they might have to be more understanding, instead of demanding that I should change to be like them.

Being a female, I've always (since I've actually had friends) have had a lot more male friends than female. Most NT females don't have a clue where I am coming from.

And my son (who has AS traits, and definitely ADD ones) has always had twice as many female friends than male ones as well. Mind you, that might be because he grew up with four sisters, and was more comfortable with girls than boys.

I don't know if that is typical, but it's worth thinking about.

That's something I get a lot from girls, not because they like me (I hope they don't...) but I think I must be a relief from those other stupid obnoxious high school boys, as I don't act in the stupid masculine manner that most boys do.

I think I've recieved every comment that everyone's listed here sometime in my life.

I've recieved words to the same effect.  I sometimes wonder if many people do think I'm sane.  What's really sad is that many of the things they say are true (not that they should say it)

Oh, right, that reminds me, I forgot:

You're mentally ill
you need psychiatric help
you must be demon possessed!

All of the above from my dear, loving husband of 25 years. And he actually wonders why I don't like having him around!  :roll:

Sheesh, I thought things were supposed to get better when those NT ******* grow up (a little)

New one:
"Snobby"
How weird.