05-27-2007, 12:38 AM
I am still in doubt as to whether or not I have Aspergers. I guess I've always had problems communicating with others, but this could have been developed as opposed to my having been born with it. Then it would not be Aspergers, would it? Anyway, about the becoming mute thing.... I don't talk most of the time except with my closest friends ( the number of which can be counted with my fingers) , and even then I find myself repeating some sentences over and over again. I would say a sentence, then I would say something else, then I'll repeat the first sentence again. Maybe not word for word, but the content would be more or less the same. When I was younger, I used to not talk at all. I used to think that it was because my language wasn't very good. I come from an English speaking family and I went to a Chinese primary school. But as time went by, I knew enough Chinese to carry on a proper conversation in the language, ( heck, I could even write a lucid essay in Chinese) , but I just could not talk to my classmates. Could it be due to the fact that I had made it a habit to stay mute, so by the time I could actually talk, I could not break the habit ( of staying mute)? And even when I'm speaking in English, sometimes I'll find myself at a loss for words. All the ideas would be swimming around in my head, but I just can't convert them into an intelligible sentence. I could be Aspergic, I could have developed this thing myself, or I could just be a normal person with a weakness in the speech department....