Aspies For Freedom

Is this a common trait for some with AS?

I appear to need constant reassurance that I'm doing things the right way, or that I'm going in the right direction... with anything.

I always feel I'm misplaced or not doings the way others are, or not as *well* as others are, in any number of endeavors.

If I craft a piece of creative writing and show it to someone, I have to tell them not to "breeze" through it, without paying attention to details.  It seems that I "enjoy" details, in most things, much more than a big picture.

If I craft a drawing, I get really pissed off if people just look at the thing and say "that's really good," and then just put it down.  I ask them constantly, "Am I going in the right direction?"

Anyone else like this?  It really doesn't "just" seem like a feature of an NT personality.  There's something "different" about this, to me.

you do want honest answer,yes?

you may have some self worth issues, but that may be the prefactioist side of AS.
yes that be noted.but i'm probly giving you the wrong words for this.

I think I often feel the same way. I want to know what that could be "good" in drawings for other than myself, so that my drawings can at least have some commercial use in the future, but I never get an any helpfull info on the "astonished-meter".

Yes indeed... the prefactionist side, which tends not to double-check grammar in a given post.

Yes, I know all about being perfectionist! I get particularly touchy about being considered unintelligent because most of the time when people try to put me down for doing something "dumb", they aren't as bright as me. But because they sound so convincing, I find it hard not to believe them.

This sounds all too familiar.

When someone says something negative about me--it could be anyone, almost, as long as they're older than 12 years old--I take it literally.  I sorta tend to agree with them that "I suck," regardless, and then I either have to argue with them and disprove it, or I get really quiet.

And then I keep replaying what they said, in my brain, like a tape loop... trying to figure out if it's "true" or not.

Most people take the insult and throw it out in a few minutes, because they're able to naturally filter out things that don't matter.  Normal people know that what other people think, isn't *that* important.  So they filter these insults out, rather quickly.

But as an Aspie, I can't filter out anything.  I have to look and examine every detail--and if the detail is that "I suck," then I stay stuck on it a lot longer.  I really have to argue it out in my brain, and find an angle that *legitimately* disproves that person's insult!  Only then am I satisfied.