01-09-2007, 11:40 AM
Hey guys. I am not too bothered about my diagnoses, but I guess I care a bit, like I care if I'm an introvert or not. I like to learn about my personality, and how it compares to others. What I have been diagnosed with is social anxiety disorder, which probably interferes with my test results. I am assuming, if I really had it, I have been going to a psychiatrist (for anxiety) for about a year, he would have said something by now.
Reason I am here, is because somebody asked me if I was an aspie on youtube: http://youtube.com/comment_servlet?all_c...046mW6stJ1 (I am not sure if that link will work. If not, here's the video instead of the full comments page: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=046mW6stJ1w) and I gathered that they don't ask everybody that, so obviously they must have seen some traits in my video. So, I decide to really have a good read about it (thank you google + wikipedia!) and the biggest trait that jumped out at me:
"Narrow, intense interests"
Always had this one. I like to keep a lot of my school work, and I've been doing this since prep, and even when I was five, I was nuts about rabbits. Then in primary school, we started on some science, and that's it, I was onto that like mad. Mainly biology though, I loved looking at insects and stuff in my garden. But the science interest kept getting narrower and narrower the more I learnt. The human body. By the time I was in high school, it was neurology. I drew little neurons everywhere, it was nuts! I got laughed at quiet a bit for it. I'm still into it, and now my favourite part of the brain is the amygdala (yay, fear response). Good thing now, I am doing a Bachelor of Behavioural Neuroscience at uni, so in a way, I fit in more, but look even more abnormal, because unlike high school, people actually know what neuroscience is, and because they all don't like it as much as me, they find it even more strange. Also, I think I am more excitment/talk and less knowledge here, though. I get average grades. I almost failed neuroanatomy, because all I cared about was the limbic system, and I have a really bad rote learning memory, and my concentration is not very good either. Funny thing is, people ask me why I am so obsessed. I don't know how to answer them. I have also loved nintendo for ages too, and sega before that, ever since I got one for my 7th birthday. I am the weirdo at uni for being a regular girl gammer
The social skills bit is hard, and I can't judge it for myself. I can say that I am not that great at it, and I am a bit slow on getting what people are talking about, but I don't think I take things literally, in fact, I often use it as a joke. And because I have social anxiety, I *think* that I am doing really badly, when I am not really sure how I am going. I am not sure at all about how good I am at body language, I think not that bad, but for the subtle facial expressions, I'm not sure, because I don't like to look people in the face. I also think I am pretty okay with picking up things from tone of voice. I also like to think and understand about how another person would be feeling, or how they came up with an opinion. Because of this, I tend to find myself arguing for other people I like when they are being bitched about behind their backs. Of course, I'm not the nicest person in the world, I join in on people I don't like. I think I'm okay with some of these social rules, and I think manners are important, but I don't like small talk. Who cares about the stupid weather! I don't care who won the dumb cricket! This is where it sucks to work in retail. I also find the question 'how are you' pointless (because I don't care if some random is feeling 'good thanks' or not), and I don't ask it, but customers answer with 'good thanks' anyway! Shows who is listening! Grrr. I don't really care about what's in fashion (well, I don't know), but I do care about what I look like. I don't want to stink, and I want to look neat. I like mixing and matching my clothes. I don't care what other people look like, though. And I care what other people think of me, and again, this is social anxiety.
I have been called 'weird' and 'eccentric' a lot. People would definatly say I am 'different' or 'not normal'. But of course, most people add 'who's normal?'. In doing some ego surfing, one person (http://trouble.philadelphiaweekly.com/ar...euron.html)
said 'She's a little odd, but then, who isn't?'. If everybody is odd, why did she have to point out the fact I am odd? It's like saying 'she's a human, but who isn't?". I don't know if aspies are called this a lot or not for sure, but a lot of places do say this. And I don't know if I'm 'aspie weird' or just plain weird. But it's something I've been picked on for since Primary School. I know I am weird, but I don't know what exact behaviours make me so damn weird, it's annoying. Asking people usually results in 'we like you the way you are'.
What else? Motor skills. Will always be a klutz. Always bad at sport. Team sport is the WORST because I have a whole team of people to let down, because people can be so competitive. I don't think kids should be forced to play team sports, it really wears that self esteem down. Language? Don't know if I talk any different. I think I was a slow learner, mum said I didn't talk until four, but that's not true, I watched videos of me talking at 3. Well, saying a few words anyway. Mum changed that to I didn't talk much, I preferred to point to things. So, that's not reliable on how normal my language development was. besides, my parents are Hungarian, so I was learning two languages. I also had to repeat kinder, because I could barely speak English, didn't have social skills ('plays alone, watches others' the comment said), or physical skills (I am assuming, this is looking at my report. Yes, I still have my kinder report from 15 years ago!)
Some people also have described me as sporadic, because I tend to sit there quietly, like I am not paying attention to anything, and then suddenly say something with lots of energy. I also get over excited quiet a bit. I also do the stim things, which I couldn't believe was part of it too, I thought a lot of people did these things. I can never sit still. I think it's because I don't pay attention to what my body is doing. In my video of me when I was about 2, I kept saying 'mmmmmmm' a lot, usually when rubbing something. I hope I don't do that now, that would be so embarrassing! I don't think so, though. Though I was caught saying 'parvicellular' over and over again in a lecture. Whoops!
And I think that's enough writing from me. I tend to write and talk too much because I always go off on stupid tangents. This is basically to explain 'I'm not exactly a neurotypical, but I'm not sure if I am an aspie or not, but who cares'. I'm more interested in reading other people's experiences, so I will be lurking a lot (which I have done already).
Finally, my scores:
Your Aspie score: 133 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 55 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
25 on the geek test.
Reason I am here, is because somebody asked me if I was an aspie on youtube: http://youtube.com/comment_servlet?all_c...046mW6stJ1 (I am not sure if that link will work. If not, here's the video instead of the full comments page: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=046mW6stJ1w) and I gathered that they don't ask everybody that, so obviously they must have seen some traits in my video. So, I decide to really have a good read about it (thank you google + wikipedia!) and the biggest trait that jumped out at me:
"Narrow, intense interests"
Always had this one. I like to keep a lot of my school work, and I've been doing this since prep, and even when I was five, I was nuts about rabbits. Then in primary school, we started on some science, and that's it, I was onto that like mad. Mainly biology though, I loved looking at insects and stuff in my garden. But the science interest kept getting narrower and narrower the more I learnt. The human body. By the time I was in high school, it was neurology. I drew little neurons everywhere, it was nuts! I got laughed at quiet a bit for it. I'm still into it, and now my favourite part of the brain is the amygdala (yay, fear response). Good thing now, I am doing a Bachelor of Behavioural Neuroscience at uni, so in a way, I fit in more, but look even more abnormal, because unlike high school, people actually know what neuroscience is, and because they all don't like it as much as me, they find it even more strange. Also, I think I am more excitment/talk and less knowledge here, though. I get average grades. I almost failed neuroanatomy, because all I cared about was the limbic system, and I have a really bad rote learning memory, and my concentration is not very good either. Funny thing is, people ask me why I am so obsessed. I don't know how to answer them. I have also loved nintendo for ages too, and sega before that, ever since I got one for my 7th birthday. I am the weirdo at uni for being a regular girl gammer
The social skills bit is hard, and I can't judge it for myself. I can say that I am not that great at it, and I am a bit slow on getting what people are talking about, but I don't think I take things literally, in fact, I often use it as a joke. And because I have social anxiety, I *think* that I am doing really badly, when I am not really sure how I am going. I am not sure at all about how good I am at body language, I think not that bad, but for the subtle facial expressions, I'm not sure, because I don't like to look people in the face. I also think I am pretty okay with picking up things from tone of voice. I also like to think and understand about how another person would be feeling, or how they came up with an opinion. Because of this, I tend to find myself arguing for other people I like when they are being bitched about behind their backs. Of course, I'm not the nicest person in the world, I join in on people I don't like. I think I'm okay with some of these social rules, and I think manners are important, but I don't like small talk. Who cares about the stupid weather! I don't care who won the dumb cricket! This is where it sucks to work in retail. I also find the question 'how are you' pointless (because I don't care if some random is feeling 'good thanks' or not), and I don't ask it, but customers answer with 'good thanks' anyway! Shows who is listening! Grrr. I don't really care about what's in fashion (well, I don't know), but I do care about what I look like. I don't want to stink, and I want to look neat. I like mixing and matching my clothes. I don't care what other people look like, though. And I care what other people think of me, and again, this is social anxiety.
I have been called 'weird' and 'eccentric' a lot. People would definatly say I am 'different' or 'not normal'. But of course, most people add 'who's normal?'. In doing some ego surfing, one person (http://trouble.philadelphiaweekly.com/ar...euron.html)
said 'She's a little odd, but then, who isn't?'. If everybody is odd, why did she have to point out the fact I am odd? It's like saying 'she's a human, but who isn't?". I don't know if aspies are called this a lot or not for sure, but a lot of places do say this. And I don't know if I'm 'aspie weird' or just plain weird. But it's something I've been picked on for since Primary School. I know I am weird, but I don't know what exact behaviours make me so damn weird, it's annoying. Asking people usually results in 'we like you the way you are'.
What else? Motor skills. Will always be a klutz. Always bad at sport. Team sport is the WORST because I have a whole team of people to let down, because people can be so competitive. I don't think kids should be forced to play team sports, it really wears that self esteem down. Language? Don't know if I talk any different. I think I was a slow learner, mum said I didn't talk until four, but that's not true, I watched videos of me talking at 3. Well, saying a few words anyway. Mum changed that to I didn't talk much, I preferred to point to things. So, that's not reliable on how normal my language development was. besides, my parents are Hungarian, so I was learning two languages. I also had to repeat kinder, because I could barely speak English, didn't have social skills ('plays alone, watches others' the comment said), or physical skills (I am assuming, this is looking at my report. Yes, I still have my kinder report from 15 years ago!)
Some people also have described me as sporadic, because I tend to sit there quietly, like I am not paying attention to anything, and then suddenly say something with lots of energy. I also get over excited quiet a bit. I also do the stim things, which I couldn't believe was part of it too, I thought a lot of people did these things. I can never sit still. I think it's because I don't pay attention to what my body is doing. In my video of me when I was about 2, I kept saying 'mmmmmmm' a lot, usually when rubbing something. I hope I don't do that now, that would be so embarrassing! I don't think so, though. Though I was caught saying 'parvicellular' over and over again in a lecture. Whoops!
And I think that's enough writing from me. I tend to write and talk too much because I always go off on stupid tangents. This is basically to explain 'I'm not exactly a neurotypical, but I'm not sure if I am an aspie or not, but who cares'. I'm more interested in reading other people's experiences, so I will be lurking a lot (which I have done already).
Finally, my scores:
Your Aspie score: 133 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 55 of 200
You are very likely an Aspie
25 on the geek test.
I am diagnosed as aspie but the psychologist took longer than usual to write up his report because he also considered the possibility of my having social anxiety disorder (I'm not anxious, more like indifferent) or being schizoid (apparently I have an "odd, stilted" affect...who knew? 