01-09-2007, 12:49 AM
Hello everybody... my name is Carolina, I'm fifteen years old and I'm from México.
So... about a week ago I took an aspie test I found online ("just for fun") and got high scores, and that I'm probably an aspie. Honestly, I didn't even know what that was so I searched on Google for information.
I guess the most notorious symptom is that I have a really hard time when trying to socialize with people, unless it's my family or my close friends. I tried to get along with people at my school when I just met
them, but couldn't. Most of the time I just don't know what to say or I feel insecure about how I could mess it up. So I just stay quiet most of the time with my earphones on. And I just can't understand how everything seems so easy to most people around me.
The other things that called my attention are focusing on details no one can see and trying to find out how things work. My mother has told me that when I was about a year ago I got an electric clown for Christmas. It was supposed to walk and sing or something but the day I got it I dismantled it and took out the cables, my mom says she still remembers how I observed carefully every piece. I still do that sometimes, even though I don't know the technical names and not much about electronic. I also had an "obsession" with World Atlas books and maps at the age of four and with books as soon I learned to read, amongst other "obsessions" I've had.
The only thing I couldn't relate with is about irony. I have trouble trying to understand people when they appear to know something I don't, and body language most of the time, but the thing is that I'm actually very sarcastic. Most people say I have a "weird" sense of humor and my jokes are usually ironic.
I'm also left-handed and have trichotillomania, it was self diagnosed and I'm still trying to control it.
There are also a lot of other details that I guess are less relevant or I'm too lazy to write.
So now I'm almost sure I have Asperger's, but now what? I don't think my mom will take it seriously, because I've always had good grades and never given any trouble, and she says I'm just shy and I'll just get through it with time. I even told a friend and she didn't believe me. But I guess that, if I have it, I will finally had found out why I am different.
Sorry if my English is not so good, it's not my native language.
So... about a week ago I took an aspie test I found online ("just for fun") and got high scores, and that I'm probably an aspie. Honestly, I didn't even know what that was so I searched on Google for information.
I guess the most notorious symptom is that I have a really hard time when trying to socialize with people, unless it's my family or my close friends. I tried to get along with people at my school when I just met
them, but couldn't. Most of the time I just don't know what to say or I feel insecure about how I could mess it up. So I just stay quiet most of the time with my earphones on. And I just can't understand how everything seems so easy to most people around me.The other things that called my attention are focusing on details no one can see and trying to find out how things work. My mother has told me that when I was about a year ago I got an electric clown for Christmas. It was supposed to walk and sing or something but the day I got it I dismantled it and took out the cables, my mom says she still remembers how I observed carefully every piece. I still do that sometimes, even though I don't know the technical names and not much about electronic. I also had an "obsession" with World Atlas books and maps at the age of four and with books as soon I learned to read, amongst other "obsessions" I've had.
The only thing I couldn't relate with is about irony. I have trouble trying to understand people when they appear to know something I don't, and body language most of the time, but the thing is that I'm actually very sarcastic. Most people say I have a "weird" sense of humor and my jokes are usually ironic.
I'm also left-handed and have trichotillomania, it was self diagnosed and I'm still trying to control it.
There are also a lot of other details that I guess are less relevant or I'm too lazy to write.
So now I'm almost sure I have Asperger's, but now what? I don't think my mom will take it seriously, because I've always had good grades and never given any trouble, and she says I'm just shy and I'll just get through it with time. I even told a friend and she didn't believe me. But I guess that, if I have it, I will finally had found out why I am different.
Sorry if my English is not so good, it's not my native language.