01-06-2007, 08:48 PM
I came here a long while back, and discussed being possibly Asperger's, but then never came back because I was still sort of sorting out my thoughts on the subject. But now I've come to terms with it and decided to wade back in, yays!
Just to make a little introduction, I'm 24, though most people think I'm 19 and I actually still sort of think of myself that way, heh. I've been into pro wrestling for about 7 1/2 years and have been an off-and-on indies professional wrestler myself for about four. I've been "off" for a couple years now, but I've begun training again to get back into it someday soon, heh.
It was probably a year ago that I was reading People magazine, and there was an article inside about a teenage filmmaker who was doing a documentary on autism, and there were several mini-interviews inside from some of the people in the documentary. Reading those, I actually got bug-eyed, and finally teary-eyed as I went running to my mother with the article going "This is me, this is me!"
So, doing what I always do with something new, I hopped online and went to researching like a madwoman. Finding the Wikipedia article on Asperger's was like reading a personal description, and discussions with my family about my younger days only heightened my suspicions. My mother said I nearly made my family crazy with my repeating, constantly parroting the commercials on TV, especially in the store as soon as I saw the product. If we were in a crowded store, I would cover my ears and start going "Mama, it's too loud, it's too loud!" and freak out. Despite reading at a college level at the age of six, I couldn't tie my shoes or use a water fountain properly until I was about 11...it was just baffling how I was supposed to make my fingers work those little things!
And the rocking...heh. Even now at my current job (I type the obits for a local paper), my boss wonders how I can manage to type while I rock the way I do. Not sure...but it feels right!
Never had much of a use for other people. Oh, I had friends, sure, but only a select few really "got" me. My closest friend, Samantha, was the only one who understood that once in a while, I would just get up and wander off a while, but no worries, I would come back when I was done with whatever had caught my attention. The others thought this was the height of rudeness, of course. The other girls eyed me with some suspicion when at the age of 16, I still just wanted to play basketball with the guys and wasn't trying to "get with" them.
And oh, my poor teachers. If their subject wasn't interesting to me, there was no hope. Fortunately, I was smart enough to get A's and B's in almost everything anyway, but I never paid attention in class. Usually if you looked, I had a notebook just peeking out from under my textbook, with a fanfic about whatever was my current obsession...samurais, Sonic the Hedgehog, Gargoyles, whatever.
Most of these behaviors are still around, but being more aware of them means I can reign them in when I have to. But I still don't like looking at people's faces. Some of them are really weird about it, too, heh. And at least my bosses have learned never to ask me a question if they don't actually want it answered. *snicker*
So...long-windedness aside...Hello! *waves*
Just to make a little introduction, I'm 24, though most people think I'm 19 and I actually still sort of think of myself that way, heh. I've been into pro wrestling for about 7 1/2 years and have been an off-and-on indies professional wrestler myself for about four. I've been "off" for a couple years now, but I've begun training again to get back into it someday soon, heh.
It was probably a year ago that I was reading People magazine, and there was an article inside about a teenage filmmaker who was doing a documentary on autism, and there were several mini-interviews inside from some of the people in the documentary. Reading those, I actually got bug-eyed, and finally teary-eyed as I went running to my mother with the article going "This is me, this is me!"
So, doing what I always do with something new, I hopped online and went to researching like a madwoman. Finding the Wikipedia article on Asperger's was like reading a personal description, and discussions with my family about my younger days only heightened my suspicions. My mother said I nearly made my family crazy with my repeating, constantly parroting the commercials on TV, especially in the store as soon as I saw the product. If we were in a crowded store, I would cover my ears and start going "Mama, it's too loud, it's too loud!" and freak out. Despite reading at a college level at the age of six, I couldn't tie my shoes or use a water fountain properly until I was about 11...it was just baffling how I was supposed to make my fingers work those little things!
And the rocking...heh. Even now at my current job (I type the obits for a local paper), my boss wonders how I can manage to type while I rock the way I do. Not sure...but it feels right!
Never had much of a use for other people. Oh, I had friends, sure, but only a select few really "got" me. My closest friend, Samantha, was the only one who understood that once in a while, I would just get up and wander off a while, but no worries, I would come back when I was done with whatever had caught my attention. The others thought this was the height of rudeness, of course. The other girls eyed me with some suspicion when at the age of 16, I still just wanted to play basketball with the guys and wasn't trying to "get with" them.
And oh, my poor teachers. If their subject wasn't interesting to me, there was no hope. Fortunately, I was smart enough to get A's and B's in almost everything anyway, but I never paid attention in class. Usually if you looked, I had a notebook just peeking out from under my textbook, with a fanfic about whatever was my current obsession...samurais, Sonic the Hedgehog, Gargoyles, whatever.
Most of these behaviors are still around, but being more aware of them means I can reign them in when I have to. But I still don't like looking at people's faces. Some of them are really weird about it, too, heh. And at least my bosses have learned never to ask me a question if they don't actually want it answered. *snicker*
So...long-windedness aside...Hello! *waves*
