10-29-2006, 08:41 PM
hi everyone my name is Nicole i am 24 years old. It all started when i was younger and in my highchair and would look at a noodle and shake because of the movement of it i guess. I found that out as i got older and was obsessed with strings and being by myself in my room instead of having friends, i would make up things in my mind like stories that i would do like going out in the car with my mom, and just have a string and shake with it in my hand moving it around. my mom would just take it from me and scream at me when i would do this, and my dad would ask if it would calm me, but yet they never got me checked out. I do this with water moving like waves, or if i am pouring water over my kids heads during their bath i shake my head tenses up and it calms me if i am running water for dishes or flushing toilet it happens, basically almost all day. My daughter was dx'd with autism and she does this as well when she is excited and i wondered what it was and now i know i may be on spectrum since me and her are so much alike. i use to stare at the wheels on the stroller when i was younger when my mom would push my brother in the stroller, and i still line stuff up with my eyes like a sign and trees on the side of the road. I can't make eye contact at all and when we go to people's houses i just sit there for 4 hours not being able to talk cause i cant read people's faces and what they think of me and i always feel like i am gonna say something stupid or that they odnt like me. If i do say something it comes out backwards or i say something that doesn't make sense. i don't even understand simple board games and get very embarrest when i don't underdstand how to do them when we get together with someone. I didnt have friends in school, had to drop out cause of getting picked on very bad, and my jobs didnt last or i just didnt understand how to do the work. When i asked for a day off of work i had to put a note under the door of the personal lady i couldn't ask her face to face. I have problems with zoning and not being able to read i start reading and skim then i have to stop since it is so overwhelming for me. I have OCD i was already dx/d with that i freqently hand wash so i dont get sick, i am constantly checking light switches and doors etc all day and night checking stove, and obsessing about autism and other things. I get angry and overwhelmed when i have to get together with family it's all too much for me i get a headache and get miserable i feel like i need a break from it all, i get like this when i shop in the store too i come home and get miserable and the lights bother me in the store it hurts my eyes. if i see someone when i take a walk i put my head down or see someone i know in store i try to avoid them. I also cant stand wet hair on my shoulders or wearing pants to bed, or when my hands are soft when i get out of shower it drives me nuts. I cant even get my hair washed in salon when the stylist goes to my right side of my hair it tingles my side and i almost jump out of the chair. I blow my nose everynight before bed and have to take a drink after and if i dont i cant sleep. I have to take a walk the same way when i do and turn around the same spot. also i have cleaning day schedules and if i dont go by them i get very angry. i always have to chew on gum too to help calm my nerves but it only helps some. this is just some about me i am getting checked thurs i hope these doctors know about AS so they can help me. i am glad to have found this board maybe someone can relate to me, thanks for having me