09-18-2006, 03:57 AM
Well, at least according to the tests i am. Just thought I'd double check the results with real people.
But I've always been slightly...weird, is i suppose the word for it. the first thing that pointed me to aspergers was actually my constant obsessions with things that are intense-but then change quickly. I'll become so engrossed in something-most often fictional, and learn everything about it. Great examples of this are TV shows (Remington Steele was a big one), Movies (My first obsession that I can remember being Indiana Jones when I was 4.), books (Harry Potter...I can tell you everything about Potterverse) and occasionally real live people that I know. And there have been times where I have actually declined to go out with people because a certain TV show is on. More often than not, though, I tell myself it's not healthy to lock myself in my room and watch TV, and hit record on the VCR instead.
But I fit the other signs too, I was always the kid that preffered to be alone. I was the kid that the teachers would always ask "what's wrong?" cause I'd always seem to be frowning as a child.
I didn't start speaking til I was 3, but once i did, i spoke very well (if with a slight impediment, I had elmer fudd R's), and i started reading early-and I love to read things that interest me. If I don't like it, it's torture to finish it. Likewise, I love to write, but loose interest in the subject quickly unless i become obsessed and engrossed with it, in which case I will literally stay up all night to write something. I'll start writing in class and block off a teacher, or I'll start coming up with a plot, and completely zone out, staring at a distant point in space and have a lot of trouble coming back. occasionally it creeps people out cause I'll just be unfocused, but staring at them without realizing it. The funny thing is I have attrocious handwriting and had to take remedial handwriting courses it was that bad.
But I've never felt like I don't pick up on social cues or body language. I mean, I can tell what people mean most of the time, and I follow the gestures and know what they're trying to say, I get sarcasm and things, but I don't LIKE social situations, I feel very uncomfortable in them, like I'll say the wrong thing, or I'll do something totally inappropriate. I also have a very hard time making eye contact-I look past you, rather than at you-usually over your shoulder. But I would much rather be at home alone than with people-especially people I don't know-for long periods of time. I have my friends, but i have a hard time making them, and I seem to doubt people a lot. The closest I get to misunderstanding people is swearing that they're just acting nice to pity me, that they don't really care about me as a friend, but I'm just the one that they want to take pity on-but i suspect that's more from being picked on a lot in elementary school.
The thing is, i feel as if I'm almost too perfect of a case...that i fit TOO MANY of the symptoms. That, and part of me just is looking for an excuse as to why I'm weird and don't quite fit in.
So do I fit the symptoms? Where do I go for a real diagnosis, any good docs in the Jersey area?
But I've always been slightly...weird, is i suppose the word for it. the first thing that pointed me to aspergers was actually my constant obsessions with things that are intense-but then change quickly. I'll become so engrossed in something-most often fictional, and learn everything about it. Great examples of this are TV shows (Remington Steele was a big one), Movies (My first obsession that I can remember being Indiana Jones when I was 4.), books (Harry Potter...I can tell you everything about Potterverse) and occasionally real live people that I know. And there have been times where I have actually declined to go out with people because a certain TV show is on. More often than not, though, I tell myself it's not healthy to lock myself in my room and watch TV, and hit record on the VCR instead.
But I fit the other signs too, I was always the kid that preffered to be alone. I was the kid that the teachers would always ask "what's wrong?" cause I'd always seem to be frowning as a child.
I didn't start speaking til I was 3, but once i did, i spoke very well (if with a slight impediment, I had elmer fudd R's), and i started reading early-and I love to read things that interest me. If I don't like it, it's torture to finish it. Likewise, I love to write, but loose interest in the subject quickly unless i become obsessed and engrossed with it, in which case I will literally stay up all night to write something. I'll start writing in class and block off a teacher, or I'll start coming up with a plot, and completely zone out, staring at a distant point in space and have a lot of trouble coming back. occasionally it creeps people out cause I'll just be unfocused, but staring at them without realizing it. The funny thing is I have attrocious handwriting and had to take remedial handwriting courses it was that bad.
But I've never felt like I don't pick up on social cues or body language. I mean, I can tell what people mean most of the time, and I follow the gestures and know what they're trying to say, I get sarcasm and things, but I don't LIKE social situations, I feel very uncomfortable in them, like I'll say the wrong thing, or I'll do something totally inappropriate. I also have a very hard time making eye contact-I look past you, rather than at you-usually over your shoulder. But I would much rather be at home alone than with people-especially people I don't know-for long periods of time. I have my friends, but i have a hard time making them, and I seem to doubt people a lot. The closest I get to misunderstanding people is swearing that they're just acting nice to pity me, that they don't really care about me as a friend, but I'm just the one that they want to take pity on-but i suspect that's more from being picked on a lot in elementary school.
The thing is, i feel as if I'm almost too perfect of a case...that i fit TOO MANY of the symptoms. That, and part of me just is looking for an excuse as to why I'm weird and don't quite fit in.
So do I fit the symptoms? Where do I go for a real diagnosis, any good docs in the Jersey area?
. All I can say is, there's only 2 antidepressants I have anything good to say about, and neither of them are SSRIs (the most popular group of antidepressants which have side effects that aren't worth the benefits).