Aspies For Freedom

I do really stupid things which get me in trouble...like covering my hands in paint or nail polish and scratching the paint off the fire.Is it me beighnt "bad".Also,has anyone else been bullied.I now self-harm and am ED-nos (eating disorder not otherwise specified) because  my self esteem is so low.I have no friends whatsoever.is it me and everyone seems to hate me or is it just everyone else not understanding my difficulties?

It is the combination of you and everyone else. It is most likely them not understanding you plus you not understanding them.
It took me years to realise that. I knew that no-one understood me, but I didn't know that I also did not understand them.

That meant there was virtually no effective communication happening.

The habits you describe sound like 'external stims' for want of a better description.
Some stims involve moving our body and mouths, but if that doesn't happen, or has been prevented, then stims can become external like picking at something, or scratching something.

Self harm is addictive and a very dangerous stim. Get help for that if you can.

It is really hard to make friends, I don't know if you want to try making friends online, but that is easier.

http://www.aspiesforfreedom.com/phpBB2/v...php?t=3888

That thread is about bullying, its very common.

Try to find some hobby that you can enjoy in your room by yourself.

thankyou.yes i pick at carpet too!

I'v e been bullied so much.for years i tried to change me

you just need to stop,
take a deep breath,
look around, and understand you are not alone.

self harming will not get you anywhere,
i used to do very bad things, and almost died many times...
now i know its not worth it, what ever anyone would have told me back then i would not have listend, so i am guessing you arent listning to me...
cos i could not help it, could not do anything about it, i still start hitting myself very hard on the head and body when i get deeply frustrated...

you are hurting the ones around you more then you are huring yourself...



and besides, good music is the best way to get up, and down...
dont forget it.

you need to get help now to stop harming yourself. the same thing hapened to me at your age, and i became badly damaged mentally as well as phyically, because no one was willing to intervene. even going to a mental ward is better than continueing to harm yourself. tell an adult at school. say you're planning to kill yourself if that's what it takes to make them do something. you need to get this fixed before it turns into a lifelong problem.best wishes, and i hope you get help. tell us what happens.i care, even if the people around you don't.

Yes I have been to a psychiactric unit.I HATED it there.They did not care and they almost really hated me.They dismissed me saying there was nothing wrong with me. Thats when I was reffered to a speech and Language therapist who did an Asperger Syndrome "test" and thats when I was FINALLY  
diagnosed.I am now in psychotherapy.

it's good that you're getting psycotherapy. please, talk to your therapist about stopping the self harm. you might harm yourself badly, and i think your life will be better  as an adult if the self harm gets fixed now. best of luck.