Aspies For Freedom

Hi,
My name is Tracy. I am a 30 year old woman living in the detroit, michigan area.  I am also a lesbian (kind of pertinant to my story, I think). Oh, and I have a medical condition known as Adrenal Hyperplasia. I also suffer from depression


I've been reading a lot obout asberger's and autism on the internet, in an attempt to figure out what I am doing wrong.   I took the geek test and scored a 28 and a 33 on the test posted on wired.

I guess I am different.  I am intelligent. I have a very good job, and I am quite self sufficient.  I own my own house and brand new car.  But thats beside the point.  When I speak of differences though, thats where my life becomes much more complicated than I can stand.  

I have a hard time with a lot of things.  Going to a grocery store is an exercise.  The thought of concentrating on what I want to buy, the bright lights, the noise of the other shoppers, and the tall shelves is almost enough to overwhelm me.  I also have a hard time with going to bars (too many people/loud music, etc) but I can manage. I also have a VERY hard time expressing myself verbally, and I find most other people's speech unconfortably 'fast'.  

Onto the other stuff. As previously mentioned, I am a lesbian.  Unfortunatly, for me it seems, the women I meet do not seem to understand my differences, or maybe I don't understand how to relate to them.  I don't know, I am at a loss.  I don't get asked on dates, and I feel that I am being laughed at when I try to ask someone out.  I feel like a lost child in a grown up world.  Its frustrating, and I think its causing my emotional wellbeing a good deal of harm.  

Please help

Hi Tracy, you sound like you could have at least aspie traits.
There are more people who are LGBT on the spectrum than in the average population.
You aren't doing anything wrong per se, its like a cat meowing at dogs and they bark back (cat analogy :smile: ).

Heh. I understand that analogy.  

Things are just hard. I can understand my computers.  They either work, or they don't work.  If they don't work, then I know how to fix them.  Thats easy.   People.  Thats different.  

Thanks..

Quote "I can understand my computers. They either work, or they don't work. If they don't work, then I know I am running windows".

Just kidding  :wink:


How do you manage in work?

You know what is the primary difference? Randomness. A computer does not do anything randomly, unless specifically programmed with random seed which is manipulable by the user. Accessories like mice and keyboards can behave oddly but that's because there is a physical flaw and they can be replaced. Predictability... I wish people had more of that.

Heh.. Yeah, I run windows..  2003 domain controller with a raid 5 drive array.  Am I sad or what?

I manage fairly well.  I am in the IT Field.  My coworkers are pretty much like me, which is nice.   In fact, in the room that I work, it is not unusual for someone to start singing a nonsensical song..  And most times, it isn't even me!

Very very very true.. Computer parts can be replaced... or bashed with a hammer. Unfortunatly, can't do that with people. (not that I would want to bash people with a hammer ).

OffTopic!

I bash their virtual identities with a hammer: http://www.guildwars.com

My favourite character is a pure warrior specialized in hammer knockdowns.

I just cast spells on them then reanimate their bones.

I am only a 5th level nec on Guild wars.  Tracy TheGreat

haha love it...