Aspies For Freedom

I was on my way home from the convenience store tonight, not five minutes ago, when I passed by on the opposite side of the street from this apartment where some NT:s were having a party. Loud, obnoxious NT music (the remixed candypop version of "Build This Thing Together") was blasting out of the open balcony doors of the apartment, at least loud enough that I would have called the police had I been a neighbor of the people having the party. Obviously, the neighbors couldn't have been too bothered, though, because no police were visible in the area.

On the balcony were standing some five NT men, smoking and drinking. As I passed by on the opposite side of the street, they started screaming, as loudly as they possibly could:

"BÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖGJÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄVEEEEEEL!!!!" ("Fucking faggot!")

"DIIIIIIIIIIIN JÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄVEEEEEEL!!!" ("You fucker!")

I at this point stopped, looking in their general direction. All I saw were dark silhouettes, outlined against the glow coming from within the apartment. I couldn't see their faces. Not that it would have mattered, as I have repeatedly experienced situations like this ever since I was a child. I did what I always do and walked on. At this point their screaming got louder.

"BÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖGJÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄVEEEEEL!!" ("Fucking faggot!")

"ÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖHHH!!!" (Unarticulated noise, similar to that of a monkey. This was repeated several times in rapid succession)

"VAFFÖ' TARU INTE FRAM EN PISTOOOOOOOOOL Å FÅÅÅÅÅÅÅR OOOOOOSS Å HÅÅÅÅÅÅÅÅÅLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA KÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄFTEEEEEEEN?!?!?!!" ("Why don't you pull out a gun and make us shut up?")

"ÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÄÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖÖHHHHHHH!!!!!"

I wandered further away at this point. They then formed some kind of shouting chorus, chanting some kind of ebonics-inspired ditty about "shit being up in something something". I don't know. I didn't listen all to well. This sort of thing has been repeated over and over again since my childhood and I don't know why. I am not a homosexual, nor had I ever seen these people earlier. They just saw me and started shouting and chanting, like monkeys. Just like monkeys. I don't know why. I don't understand it. I feel bad now. Sad. This whole thing awoke many memories in me of being bullied as a child, since some of the methods then used (which did not involve direct physical violence) were the same.

Curiously, as I got a bit furhter away from the apartment in question, I saw a police car pulled over at the curb. I don't think the police in it were there to investigate the disturbance. More likely, I think they were pulled up outside of a local pizza parlor and were disappointed that it was closed. I didn't say anything to them. I just kept walking. I feel bad now. So powerless. Just as always. Retaining my faith in humanity gets harder every time something like this happens. It's so very hard to think of certain people like human beings and not like primitive animals who deserve to be slaughtered when all they do is torment you. Over and over again. And there's nothing you can do to stop it since they are stronger than you and outnumber you. It makes me feel sad. So sad and angry and powerless. Whatever. I feel bad now. I think I'm gonna go get drunk. I'm tired of feeling.

They were drunken morons, they would have shouted the same to anyone, sadly it happened to you.

Amy: Thank you. I was very sad and angry when I wrote my last post. I often do feel singled out for abuse in my everyday life, though. Either I'm just paranoid, or I just act so differently that I'm automatically made a target for this reason. I don't know.

Worm: Yes, as I stated above, it happens quite a lot. I don't look very different, though, so I guess it's something in my posture or in my way of walking. I recognize what you write about the stiff "robot" type of walking method. I had a lot of problems with walking "naturally" when I attended Junior High here in Sweden, and was repeatedly bullied as a result, so I know that people will target you for abuse if you walk "incorrectly". I have since practiced walking in the "correct" manner, including constantly turning my head and staring off into nothingness like you describe. I'm not certain why many NT:s act like this either, but I do seem to have mastered walking in a more "natural" fashion nowadays. Not natural enough though, it seems.

The former because of the latter, as well as the latter, perhaps? That's the way things are for me, atleast.


I was going to write more in response to the latter part your first post, but it turned into a slightly incoherent misanthropic rant, so I decided not to. Oh well...

Gah idiots, drunk ones at that. Like Amy said, it just so happend that you were walking past at that point, single minded idiots like that just get a buzz outta insulting anyone who isn't in their gang. It makes them feel all big and powerful.
Meh they're the ones who look stupid.
Yours in randomness!
RG

Peter, hold onto the thought that we've all experienced it at some time or other.  We're your friends and can listen via email whenever you need to unload.  The fact that you DIDN'T react or overreact shows that you have self-control and self-discipline, something those morons will never even come close to understanding.  You say they made monkey noises?  Well that is just what they are, using primitive territorialism to intimidate somebody who is seen as not part of their social grouping.  And that is what wars are, on a much larger scale.  You did the right thing, although that's not much comfort I know, when you are feeling humiliated and sad.  
Hopefully the stupid idiots will drink themselves to death, or get killed in a fight with other NTs when they don't have their group to back them up.
Alison

Alison: thank you, that's very warming to know. Feel free to get in touch with me as well, should you desire to "unload".

It feels comforting to know that others have also experienced the same feelings of intimidation and abuse in their everyday lives. I have a hard time understanding the afforementioned territorial behaviour as displayed by many NT:s. I oftentimes think that it is this trait which makes many NT:s, especially males, so interested in sports. The whole "Us VS Them" mentality must really appeal to people like those mentioned above.

I have studied some of the noises made by NT men as they watch sports and oftentimes they are very similar to the ones made by the drunks shouting from that balcony. Sort of an unarticulated "AAAAAAuuuuuUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUuuuuuuugh" -noise. This noise primarily seems to be dominant when the team they're cheering for is winning. It's quite fascinating.

There might be kind of equivalents for females, relating to the cuteness factor.  (I'm allergic to "cute").  Ooooooooooooh, a stuffed baby panda....ooooooooooooooh, how cuuuuutte!!!!!!! (shriek).

Ugh (hope I haven't offended anyone).

Well....... I love it when people react like that towards my puppy!  :grin:

Is your avatar a visual representation of the above?  :lol:  :lol:  :lol:

No, that's a charicature of me, actually. It's from one of my comics.

Ok... So I take that is a charicature of yourself during a meltdown..??  :grin:

Heehee!  I still don't know what it all meant, but it was funny nonetheless.  I liked the bit at the end : "Point is lifeless".  And the bit about the fuhrer's panty drawer = ew imagery!
Alison :lol:

Quite... intresting random humor. About as weird as some of the weirdest text I have written.

EDIT: By the way, after reading what the vegetables said on the FAQ page, I wonder: are you by any chance protected from The Terrible Secret of Space?

I am sorry to hear this happened to you. I have experienced similar things throughout life. Some are just drunk idiots like these, some single us out for some reason or another. It really does its damage after a while, and takes a long time to forget about.

I avoid drunk people at all cost, just makes things easier.

I love the description of the monkey like noises. They dont make sense, guess im not a monkey?   :lol: