Because I'm fifty...


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Everybody in the world.
Even the teachers? 
My son is very much looking forward to HS this fall. He speaks as though it is Shangri La. Unfortunately, I expect that opinion to change once he's been there a few weeks
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Oh god, been there, and it is so awful. As recently as last October, I remember having panic attacks on the way to school, because it was so bad, and thinking to myself, "Should I stay home?" and then breaking down completely because thinking about home was even worse.
And Alternative Schools are not magic bullets. I go to an alternative school, and I thank my lucky stars I'm here, because here at least I'm still alive. I've taken one class at the normal high school- and I know, without a doubt, I would have committed suicide if I'd had a full day of classes there.
Not that I didn't almost do so anyway during the worst times at this school....
Next year I'll be in 11th grade. Then over the summer I'll be doing extra credit work so in my senior year I'll be able to relax more. I'm spending this summer working on my Graduation Project. 
Oh god, been there, and it is so awful. As recently as last October, I remember having panic attacks on the way to school, because it was so bad, and thinking to myself, "Should I stay home?" and then breaking down completely because thinking about home was even worse.
And Alternative Schools are not magic bullets. I go to an alternative school, and I thank my lucky stars I'm here, because here at least I'm still alive. I've taken one class at the normal high school- and I know, without a doubt, I would have committed suicide if I'd had a full day of classes there.
Not that I didn't almost do so anyway during the worst times at this school....
Next year I'll be in 11th grade. Then over the summer I'll be doing extra credit work so in my senior year I'll be able to relax more. I'm spending this summer working on my Graduation Project. 
Yeah, I missed the bus once. My step-mother, in a drunken rage, gave me a concussion.
Things got so bad, between home and school, that I did attempt suicide. Wound up attending 11th grade in the hospital I was confined in.
Oh god, been there, and it is so awful. As recently as last October, I remember having panic attacks on the way to school, because it was so bad, and thinking to myself, "Should I stay home?" and then breaking down completely because thinking about home was even worse.
And Alternative Schools are not magic bullets. I go to an alternative school, and I thank my lucky stars I'm here, because here at least I'm still alive. I've taken one class at the normal high school- and I know, without a doubt, I would have committed suicide if I'd had a full day of classes there.
Not that I didn't almost do so anyway during the worst times at this school....
Next year I'll be in 11th grade. Then over the summer I'll be doing extra credit work so in my senior year I'll be able to relax more. I'm spending this summer working on my Graduation Project. 
Yeah, I missed the bus once. My step-mother, in a drunken rage, gave me a concussion.
Things got so bad, between home and school, that I did attempt suicide. Wound up attending 11th grade in the hospital I was confined in.
See, my parents don't go in for the physical torment as much. They prefer mental anguish. When I missed the bus, they made me walk home, which took two hours, in the boiling heat and intense sun. I'm not a very physical person, I don't exercise much. By the end I was so weak I was shaking and had to rest every ten yards or so; I was dizzy; I was in sensory overload; etc. When I arrived at home, I was met with more admonishment and yelling about how stupid it was of me to have missed the bus, and how if I felt sick it was my own damn fault; I wouldn't have had to walk if it weren't for my own stupidity, besides which, if I weren't so lazy I'd be in better shape so I would feel fine, etc. Making it out to be MY fault.
(and I had only missed the bus one other time this year, at that point, so it's not like I'm making habit of this).
