Aspies For Freedom

I'm scared of not being able to find a career. As in a career with a huge salary that I'll really enjoy doing.
I know that any idoit can get a job from McDonalds. I mean you can still have a criminal record long enough to be a book and a 4th grade education and still at fast food.
The problem is that I aim much higher than that. I want to do something that will truly make me suceed.
I don't know exactly what I want to do but I want a career that emphasizes excellent reading and writing skills and a requirement to work alone

The problem is that I'm scared that no job would take me. If they've read my medical records they'll think I have "autism" and evidence points that I don't. That's why I call myself PDD-NOS. Whenever a NT thinks of autism, they either think "tragedy" or "burden" so therefore I'm instantly not hired. A NT thinks that autism is mental illness, they think that anything that's not neurologically typical equals mentally ill. Would you hire somebody who was once in a mental institution? That's how the NT thinks about us, like it or not.

I was never institutionalized. Instead I went to this "special" school where they lumped all the "special" kids together. From ages 3 through 10 I was placed in a class full of retards and insane violent people. If anyone ever reads that while hiring me, I'm screwed!

I'm 16 years old and I already have a criminal record. When I was 10 years old my teacher told me to send a note to my mom saying that I didn't do my homework properly. She said my mom had to sign the paper making sure my mom actually read it.
I was scared to death that my mom was going to yell or hit me so therefore I decided to forge the signature. My teacher found out and told me it was a criminal offense. I didn't even know what forgery was back then.

When I was 14, I got kicked out of a store by a manager and a policeman. There were these kids who kept laughing at me and mocking my voice. I didn't realize it until this girl was nice enough to tell me.
I got pissed and started cursing at the kids and when they didn't stop laughing I threatened to beat one of them up.
The manager took those kid's side even though she knew what they did. She threw me out of the store yet she did NOTHING to punish those kids. Now it's in my records that I'm a destructive person when in reality I was just defending myself.

My mom and I got into a huge arguement and the police came to our house. My mom treats my sister, dad and I like crap at home and when we're all in public she acts all nice and perfect. She acts as if we're just brats while she's all innocent. Incredibly two-faced and manipulative if you ask me.
The police believed her side of the story because of her great ability to talk her way out of everything. Oh great, now even the f***ing police think I'm a problem child. Since they all believe her, this one policeman either tried to have a shouting match with me or wanted to make me cry.
Who the hell knows, I was trying to run away from him the entire time to avoid looking at him.
I've got a question. Would the records say what happened in details or that the police simply arrived (I hope so, then I could just make up something)

Thanks to manipulative, two-faced and incredibly prejudiced NTs I can get a decent job now! Now whoever hires me will think I'm freaking insane.
Another shitty scenario is that they don't find out about all of this until I actually get the job and then they find a damn excuse to fire me.
Like they would just find some stupid reason but you know in reality they are just firing me because of my history of autism.
People with disabilites can't hide anything that's permenantly in print since they were children! You can't hide nonsense like this.

Another issue is that what if they put me in disabilty despite that I do not need it? I bet I'm higher functioning that 99.9999% of you. I'm not saying this to brag but what the hell am I supposed to say when I don't even have some of the essential symptoms of autism?
If they're going to offer me extra money for the hell of being "disabled" then I don't want it! I want to get money by my own merits. I don't want to suck up tax payer's money. That's the reason that NTs are pissed at people with mental illnesses because they have to pay they're own hard earned money through taxes for us.
I've learned that only 6% of people on the spectrum, including aspies live independently. I'm scared of the stigma it'll bring if I have to live with my parents or a caretaker for the rest of my life.
If I'm told to take medication or see a therapist (I currently don't do either, nor did I ever have to), I don't want co-workers to learn about it.
Bullying doesn't end at high school, people can still make fun of you when you're well into adulthood or at least belittle and patronize you.

I know that at least one person is going to tell me to be a computer programmer. I'm not interested in computers and my knowledge of computers is limited to the Internet, Instant Messenger and Mircosoft Word.
I also have no real savant skills. I'm not a talented artist or musician and I'm well below average in math. Unless you count speed reading as a savant skill, then I'm not savant. I just call natural speed reading undiagnosed hyperlexia.

Sorry for the extremely long post. Maybe I should have just listed this as a rant instead. Could anybody help me? Thank you.

Hi Ghost, most jobs would not need to view your medical records, so would not know what specific diagnosis was contained in them. They would need your permission anyway to have access to your records.

I couldn't understand part of your post, the html was messed up.

Sorry about the weird HTML! I didn't do that. My computer has this weird program that lets that happen sometimes.
It's not my fault. I'm weird but I'm not THAT weird LOL
It should be fixed by now!

Ghost, sounds like you have no criminal record at all. If you did, you would have had your photo taken, and fingerprints taken. You would have been cautioned or charged with something. Your mom calling the police out does not give you a record. They would take a note of it, but if you weren't arrested, then don't worry.

So I wouldn't get in trouble for forgery in the past or getting kicked out of a store either?
I wonder if school records get checked. If so, I'm in trouble because I've done a few odd things in high school that would make people go WTF? rather than, this is a bad kid.
If they look at anything from elementary school, then I'm in trouble. Middle school was ok, if you look at 6th grade they do mention stuff about special education but in 7th and 8th grades it's mostly confrontations with other kids.
Well, if my entire life story doesn't make me go unemployed then if I'm accused of doing something unlawful or end up suing someone, I'll lose the case. A lawyer would tear and shread me to pieces due to all the crap I've done. Going to court for ANY reason creeps me out for that reason.

If you go on to college, an employer would usually look at that, a reference from a college tutor for instance.

The thing with the teacher and forging her name is nothing at all to worry about, or being thrown out of a store.

Sounds like you need some good vibes, Ghost. Whether or not your history is going to affect your employment opportunities isn't the main thing right now. You seem very negative about yourself. It is true, some people out there cannot be bothered to look beyond a piece of paper and are going to judge you accordingly, you cannot change that. You have to have some good stuff about you on paper. The thing that helped me the most were personal references. These were obtained from the contacts i made through volunteer work and social groups.

OOO :roll: I can hear you holler! Hang on a bit, ok? Who said life was easy? Having other people realise i was a worthwhile person and hardworking and write that down so i could see it, made me feel and ACT as if i was employable. Which i am.

And so are you. I belive in you. Go out and get the evidence.
becca

Becca is exactly right.  Personal references are very important in a job search, and volunteer work is a good way to get them.  When I was unemployed (at home with small children), I started doing volunteer work helping battered wives who were divorcing their husbands.  The coordinator of the project later gave me a reference when I applied for a job with a publishing company.  I got the job, and my employer lets me work at home with a company-provided computer.   :grin:

As for elementary school records, no one looks at them.  It's possible that an employer may want to see your high school records, but as Amy said, if you go on to college, they will only look at your college transcript.

I for one agree that most employers won't be bothered to look at medical records; I'm not entirely sure where you're from, but I'd say that medical records are classified anyway.

Also, there's no reason to disclose your ASD when applying for a job; however, once hired, it might help to talk to a supervisor about it (depending on how sympathetic the supervisor is, and that can be a tough thing to figure out).

hi i accept you are worreid about your future same as iam at 39 but retard and insane and idiots and attacking those of us on dissabiklity beneftis and incapacity benefits helps none of us


an aspie in my opinion will only do ok in a job if it is within there obsessive special interest,as you say computers are not yours so those jobs as saame for me are out

only you know your interests,for many apsies this means yes benefits and support all there lives.

as for declaring your aspergers or whatever i urge you to do so

if you diont then you have no dissability emplyment protection.

beleive me i was diagnosed with nothing at all until my lat sacking for behaviour 3 years ago and unless you are veryt lucky your apsieness will show thourgh,even though no one will no what it is,or make allowances.


i spent 17 years in various jobs most ended up being scked for sickness/abruptness/behaviour/and lack of attrention making errors all time

i stood out like a sore thumb,from age of 6 at school to this presnt day not working it makes no differance whether someone knpows or does not those who bully will do so regardless and emplyeers will expect too much of you as they have no knowledge of dissability if you have not declared it.


i am not taking from the tax payer,i still pay taxes every time i buy something and did pay income tax for many year.
i am going to college but not for work but my own desire to do english and maths in a specail supported learning environment.

i expect to be on benefits most if not all of my life,i dont cope with the world very well,and presently live with parents still.

again another area you mentioned if it hsappens to you dont be ashamed of it and more over please dont insult those of us who are.

some aspies will find work,even so some of them will have major problems in coping and many burn out after several years.

if there knowledge is more mainstram ie computers/acocunts/art/engineering or inventors then they will probably fare better
but my interests and obsession will not get me work.

and i have so little energy or willingness to move much that its not likely to be an option for me

i have bene failry judged so far by DWP DSS beneifts and have been told no further proof of dissability and incapacity need to be priovided to them for 5 years.

so i wish you luck and think about your interest and see if any of those can be do to with a job.


but dont malign those of us incapable of working

regards,Paul