07-13-2008, 06:19 PM
One of the reasons I don't like it (sort of) is because I do not want to be eliminated. I'm desperate because of that I don't want to be eliminated. I'm too young to die.
07-13-2008, 06:19 PM
07-14-2008, 06:03 AM
I know weveryone will deal with the discovery/diagnossi differently, but I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time about it.
Personally, I was elated to finally have an explanation for my behavior. Every day I'm more and more convinced I'm aspie, everything just fits so perfectly and explains so much. I long for next month to roll around when I can find out for sure if I'm officially an Aspie.
Sure, in school I was far from popular, but I wasn't desperate for friends, I had a few people in each class that I knew, so it wasn't like I was completely alone. I rarely got invited to anything outside of school, but on occasion I did, but I would say it was often enough, as I didn't really look farward to social outings, but once I was out I had a decent time of it. Now in university I have no friends in any given class, but a few aquaintances. However, it seems my need for contact has dropped as I entered university - since I first moved into the dorms I've craved solitude, though yeah, on occasion I do feel somewhat lonely. Up until a few months ago I pondered why so many people go from door to door, seemingly randomly, and talk with others, or go out with a bunch of people, or even study with other people, and I'm always in my room on my own or out doing something byt myself. It really bugged me for a while, how I was so different from everyone around me. No wonder my roommate moved out after less than a month (good riddance in my mind, single room for the price of a double, no complaints from me!), it's because I never did anything. Now, once I found out about Asperger's, I didn't have to wonder why I was so different anymore, I knew. Now I just have to know that I really knew...errr, in other words, get an official diagnosis.
I honestly hope you start to see the positive, seeing things for what they are, very soon. Yes, there are disadvantages, lotso f them, but there are good points, too. Personally, I don't think sitting here and naming them will do any good, because we all probably see different things as positive or negative depending on our situations, so you'll have to try and decide what the positives are for you.
And yes, sometimes I do think "If only I was 'normal'..." but I wouldn't change who I am for anything.
Personally, I was elated to finally have an explanation for my behavior. Every day I'm more and more convinced I'm aspie, everything just fits so perfectly and explains so much. I long for next month to roll around when I can find out for sure if I'm officially an Aspie.
Sure, in school I was far from popular, but I wasn't desperate for friends, I had a few people in each class that I knew, so it wasn't like I was completely alone. I rarely got invited to anything outside of school, but on occasion I did, but I would say it was often enough, as I didn't really look farward to social outings, but once I was out I had a decent time of it. Now in university I have no friends in any given class, but a few aquaintances. However, it seems my need for contact has dropped as I entered university - since I first moved into the dorms I've craved solitude, though yeah, on occasion I do feel somewhat lonely. Up until a few months ago I pondered why so many people go from door to door, seemingly randomly, and talk with others, or go out with a bunch of people, or even study with other people, and I'm always in my room on my own or out doing something byt myself. It really bugged me for a while, how I was so different from everyone around me. No wonder my roommate moved out after less than a month (good riddance in my mind, single room for the price of a double, no complaints from me!), it's because I never did anything. Now, once I found out about Asperger's, I didn't have to wonder why I was so different anymore, I knew. Now I just have to know that I really knew...errr, in other words, get an official diagnosis.
I honestly hope you start to see the positive, seeing things for what they are, very soon. Yes, there are disadvantages, lotso f them, but there are good points, too. Personally, I don't think sitting here and naming them will do any good, because we all probably see different things as positive or negative depending on our situations, so you'll have to try and decide what the positives are for you.
And yes, sometimes I do think "If only I was 'normal'..." but I wouldn't change who I am for anything.
08-19-2008, 09:36 PM
I guess I hate being AS too. I guess I just want to live a normal life.
08-31-2008, 04:21 PM
Lucario Wrote:
I don't want to offend anyone. but please hear me out. I'm just curious to know, what advantages to aspies have over NT's? Have you ever had the problem I have right now?
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
dont pick on anyone or run around nakes, dont let people use you answers to cheta on a test, planning suicide eh, i think ill do that for myself!
08-31-2008, 04:29 PM
Lucario Wrote:
I don't want to offend anyone. but please hear me out. I'm just curious to know, what advantages to aspies have over NT's? Have you ever had the problem I have right now?
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
ive decided not to commit suicide and live forever.
08-31-2008, 04:31 PM
Escapist Wrote:
I used to be ashamed of the fact that I'm autistic, but now I'm happy to be autistic.
Can't get into much more detail (English isn't my strongest subject).
Can't get into much more detail (English isn't my strongest subject).
it is mine im going to be an author when i grow up
08-31-2008, 04:37 PM
M Wrote:
I never stopped being an aspie but at one point in my life I started to realize how much suffering I had because of it. I don't hate being an aspie --- I JUST HATE THE WAY SOME PEOPLE TREAT ME BECAUSE I HAVE ASPERGERS.
Now that you know some people have treated you badly because you have asperger's -- you could start working on ways to try and protect yourself from that abuse. It will never be 100% effective but it will lessen your suffering.
I started one day to realize that my happiness could be dependent on myself and not on being around other people and having lots of friends.
Do you want some help?
Now that you know some people have treated you badly because you have asperger's -- you could start working on ways to try and protect yourself from that abuse. It will never be 100% effective but it will lessen your suffering.
I started one day to realize that my happiness could be dependent on myself and not on being around other people and having lots of friends.
Do you want some help?
i hate my treatment in society too.
08-31-2008, 09:16 PM
"You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you."
Is How I feel everyday.
I would'nt say I'm proud to have aspergers but I want to one day be and to just be happy being myself.I'm no where near but one day I hope to be.
Is How I feel everyday.
I would'nt say I'm proud to have aspergers but I want to one day be and to just be happy being myself.I'm no where near but one day I hope to be.
09-21-2008, 01:19 AM
There are plenty of ways to even the odds. But first and formost is observation at a distance or getting hold of a book or something for aspies on dating. There is one I have read it,but may have to google to find the name I can't recall the exact name or who wrote it (tomorrow I probably could). Aspergers Australia has it so a search of their website will probably track it down. http://www.aspergers.asn.au (I think). It is very explicit revealing much in minute detail. Far more than I ever could.
09-21-2008, 01:28 AM
Link doesn't work, New website is, http://www.asperger-qld.websyte.com.au or a good search around the parent site, http://www.asperger.asn.au/tiki-index.php (especially) Email them they will tell you or get some info to you. Of course leaning into christianity heavily as I have noticed, is guaranteed to scare people away as well. Not thats there is anything wrong with christianity. In fact a lot of women do like a man with strong ethics, but they don't like fire and brimstone type stuff either.
09-24-2008, 09:07 PM
Lucario Wrote:
I don't want to offend anyone. but please hear me out. I'm just curious to know, what advantages to aspies have over NT's? Have you ever had the problem I have right now?
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
Do you have any advice?
A part of me hated myself for being an asperger. It made me feel weak, and naive. As a child, I was raped 8 times and didn't know it. I was angry at myself for not reporting it and never figureing it out. I just figured it out this morning.
I'm always an easy target, for bullying, rape and theft. I'm very easy to take advantage of.
Ever had this problem:
I walked up to these two girls who needed help with their assignment. I offered to assist but they just looked at each other, laughed and walked away.
People say I'm smart, but I'm going to prove them wrong with my 96 I.Q.(My psychoanalyst test) When I beleived them I actually acted like a smart ***, acting like a know-it-all just for the sake of attention. When people cheat off my answers off a test. I feel useful. when i act like a know-it-all, people look at me as stuck up. I didn't know was being as such. When I found out that my behavior pointed to the disorder, I went to bed and cried my eyes out. Calling myself names, like "freak" "***" "dummy" I even planned my suicide, but never acted on it. I heard of a cure and I really wanted this cure, even if I risk losing my own life..(right now I'm not sure.)
You want to say something to the other students but it feels like that no one ever listens to you.
I tried reading books on how to make friends, but they proved useless, I feel like I did something wrong. Maybe I did. I did all the thing the other kids did to get attention, silly things. If someone ran naked across the school football field, I'd do the same thing. If kids are picking on the fat kid, i'd do the same, but I never picked on anyone before.
Every day, I walk around campus looking at the floor, hating myself and the whole world. I wanted something bad to happen like a school shooting, or a plane crash. I looked back and asked myself why I never died of lead poison.
It's very hard to grow up and suck it up. You guys seemed to like being an AS, but I just wondered why.
I know you don't want to hear me but this is the truth. Now I'm going to bed and I'm going to cry my eyes out again
look, nts may live better lives but we have the brains, we should take over the world, aspies are way better than neuro typicals, were smarter.
09-24-2008, 09:59 PM
Average IQ is a range from 90 - 110, it is based on a bell curve distribution so the majority of the population 95% will lie between 90-110
09-24-2008, 11:05 PM
I was actually coming up with unusual stunts to have fun to pass the time at boarding school. Mine was an organized birthday party where I gave the cake, a sponge cake complete with cream etc. Except the sponge part of the cake was a piece of foam matress covered with cream.
So when the guy tried to cut it, he couldn't and got frustrated, then he realized what was up and chased me for the next hour. What fun. Later grades were a nightmare though as the bullying cut in.
So when the guy tried to cut it, he couldn't and got frustrated, then he realized what was up and chased me for the next hour. What fun. Later grades were a nightmare though as the bullying cut in.