You have not read my Pm's now or in the past have you?
If you are not wanting to listen or believe our response why ask the questions?
Might count for more than you imagine.
Hmmmm....Batman why does that sound familiar I wonder?
Lol Aliengirl, learing disabled doesn't count for shit IMHO, its who you asre that counts.
And yer rockin
I wonder who the alpha males with unlimited confidence are here.
****Put your hand down Ian****
Besides Ian. I do not know anyone else that fees like this. (No Ian I am not having a dig)
I know I struggle with poor esteem and under confidence.
Look at this portion of a PM to Flardox (Much like the next post I did to you before you find favouritism or what have you)
"Not gone unnoticed or unappreciated.
I really hope you all realise what your unexpected show of support means to me. Very humbling.
Irrespective of what I inevitably will always do and the persona I do put out there, it does actually matter to me that people here think well of me despite all my obvious shortcomings.
It always suprises me and embarrasses me when I hear nice things or others defending me."
1000 posts!!!! Yay Soccerfreak.
Is there really a pecking order here? I guess I don't see it.
I'd say that there are affinities that form among subsets of people for a bunch of different reasons--it's an odd interwoven set of dances.
My two cents for you, Batman, are that until you can fully appreciate your own intrinsic value, no amount of positive reenforcement will be enough to satisfy you....and conversely, when you do appreciate your unique and wonderful self, then you won't need the positive reenforcement, but will gladly be able to receive it when it comes your way.
to be totaly honest batman, i have on more than one occasion, wondered "where is batman, i wonder what he thinks about this". im serious, i actually feel left out when you dont comment on my threads.
There is three people like that who are regular posters that I look out for and thoroughly enjoy and am delighted when I see them. Pakrat, Tigger and Batman. Sure I like other posters but I can almost always agree with them and they post often and very wisely.
I wonder who the alpha males with unlimited confidence are here.
****Put your hand down Ian****
Besides Ian. I do not know anyone else that fees like this. (No Ian I am not having a dig)
Well I'd say the unlimited confidence thing is more a problem for me in real life, those folks always "steal the show" so to speak.
On AFF, what I see as a much bigger problem is a bit simpler: intellectual credibility. I simply don't have it. I'm very undereducated and simply not capable of understanding certain kinds of subject matter to the extent that others can.
I am not able to contribute in many discussions because I don't have the prerequisite knowledge needed to do so. It seems that those most knowledgeable, in my opinion, make it harder for those less knowledgeable to contribute and be appreciated. That is how I see it; I'm not gonna lie.
Thankee kindly Rossco 
Although Ted thinks i've mellowed in my "old age" lol.
I feel as if I'm quite low down in the pecking order.
I don't post as much as my reading and typing skills aren't the best.
And because of this I don't think I have a particularly strong presence in the forum.
I also feel as if I've got myself into a lot of trouble recently on the forum (partly of my own making) which has damage my status and made me fall down the pecking order somewhat.
You have the biggest heart here QD
You are much loved (said in a big manly way you understand)
Ethel I just read your post and i may be wrong but I think I may be madly in love with you.
You are dead right and you remind me of Mahler in the way you post. I Love Mahler and thereby you too.
I am so glad you got brave and came back
Love (for stir-up value) Rossco
Me to. I had another aspie telling me the other day he was more highly functioning neurologically than I was. I laughed and basically said. "Hey 99% of humanity are more high functioning than either of us and you think we in the bottom 1% ought to haggle about it. You probably are - call it a big win for you"
I do OK. I used to beat myself up how I would try my hardest and never feel like I "made the grade". Now I know I am gentler on myself. I try my hardest and get by and do not beat myself up over it. I will never be as socially competent, for example, as those around me. That does not matter as I will be as competent as I can be. Those friends of mine who know me understand and understand and respect how I am.
I am not weird I am just Rossco to them. I have often heard them explain to others "That's just Rossco" in a way that is both dismissive of the enquiry and of no importance to them. It is evident they do not mind my being me and do look for ways they can help me out and make things easier for me. I am usually embarrassed and touched by their efforts.
I have finally learned to cut myself a biit of slack and appreciate myself a little. Many years to get there though.
One thing it has definitely showed is that you are not alone in your feelings.
Many of us feel small and insignificant and out of our depth in collective groups of any kind.
Your fears and concerns of being different and unaccepted by our peers were surprisingly shared by most of us.