Aspies For Freedom

For a long time I lived in a black and white world, and I thought "any adult knows anything better than any kid." That is why I did not tell lies to my parents, not because I could not deceive, but because I thought it were useless anyway. At one time I tried to tell a lie and thought because I was caught that all instances would be the same. I believed the quote "parents have eyes in the back of their head." I thought adults know everything like god, though they cannot change anything from what they know (just as they cannot have reruns of the TV show they missed at their will). I believed that kids became adults on their 21st birthday. I also had the idea that spring starts on March 1st summer on June 1st and so on till I found the variation through analysis in temperature.

I believed in black and white, and didn't know there were shades of gray in between. I felt if something wasn't wrong it had to be right, it never occurred that there were outside factors and variations in degree. For instance I did things for a purpose and could not understand why they were wrong, when the intention was not wrong. I never knew there were such things as half-truths. I either believe thoroughly or not at all.

Now I know there are shades of gray, but the hard part is determining what shade it is.

Here's a song lyric you may or may not have heard from Iron Maiden's Dream of mirrors.

"I only dream in black and white, I only dream 'cause I'm alive, I only dream in black and white, to save me from myself. The dream is true."

(plus of course, the song rocks on a number of levels.)

Conrad

"And don't criticise what you can't understand, your sons and your daughters are beyond your command, oh the times they are a changin'"