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Rant:

The Not-so-high-functioning thread in Spectrum Haven is lowering the self-esteem of Aspies who aren't gifted, like myself.  Reading it has had a destructive effect on my very slippery grip on my own self-concept, which swings between intelligent and completely pathetic (nothing in between.)  I fear I find too much of myself in that thread, and wonder what I'll do if I begin to believe the "mild retardation" concept presented in that thread.  Probably, the further my self-loathing will go and I'll become highly self-destructive again.

Just trying to get out of "self-destruct" mode has been a struggle for me.  I don't need "let's all celebrate our cognitive disability" threads to make me go back to that awful place.

I cannot accept an existence where I have to think I'm defective, as a cold, hard fact.  I must not believe such a thing.  It could only harm.  And for a perfectionist like me--it could do much more than that.

EvilZakkie Wrote:

Essentially, I blame this on defining autism and aspergers in terms of deficiencies - The DSM criteria offers no insight into the autistic mind, choosing instead to list the things we're not as good at.


YES! That is the problem when the world looks at everything through the DSM lens -- everything is seen as a deficit model. That's what Positive Psychology is about -- redefining who we are as individuals by assessing, realizing and developing our positive characteristics.

EvilZakkie Wrote:
The ultimate step would be to introduce the "Social Neurotype" to replace the previous neurotypical category - including a similar write-up of thought processes, etc. This would finally put NT's on an equal level to others, by presenting their information in exactly the same way as everyone elses - a much better alternative to the "problems" vs "no problems" ideology we currently have.


"Social Neurotype" could be a much better description of what gets called "Neurotypical" -- a term that started, lest we forget, as a satirical bit of comedy -- which is constantly misused and misunderstood, but used none-the-less because we don't have a better term.

Rant:

If you're not very bright, you probably won't fit in on an Aspie forum or AFF.  Most Aspies here (obviously--the evidence is all over the place) are very bright.

It is one reason I am pondering a permanent departure, and have been for quite some time.  There's no use in hanging around and having no comprehension of at least 50% of the subject matter (for me, political issues and science threads.)  Ever wonder why I don't participate in those!?!

Tyler'sMom Wrote:
Remember, we're doing something great here by valuing the spectrum.  That means we value the WHOLE RANGE of people, not just the people who don't ever need a dictionary or who can actually understand Einstein's theories.  


Thanks for the insight.  The problem I have here is partly the attitude of the Aspies who DO have Math brilliance, thorough understanding of scientific theories, well-read in philosophy (a lot of the hyperlexic types have this as a forte)...  they do not seem to acknowledge those of us who lack the intelligence/knowledge.  They do not seem to understand that there could be Aspies who don't have the same gifts they have.

There seems to be an uppity nature about these Aspies; they seem to think you're not "all that Aspie" if you're not on their wavelength.

So what happens is people like me end up feeling like they don't really belong to Aspergia.

Bella Wrote:
I made a self confidence thread, which seems to be the other main debate on this thread.  I was worried this thread was getting a little bit derailed, so it is here - http://www.aspiesforfreedom.com/showthre...?tid=10846


Well, my rants are usually tied in with certain issues/deficits I have, and this is a rant thread, so I hadn't stopped to think that I was derailing it... if I really am, then I apologize.

Zakkie, are my posts in this thread really a disturbance for you?  I have read your posts here and found them thought-provoking, I hope my rants haven't distracted from that.

woman from mars Wrote:
I truly don't think that anyone is being 'uppity' they just are who they are, the same as I am just me & you are just you.
We are ALL different.


Sure, math/science gifted Aspies are who they are, but they generally don't understand how others (esp. other Aspies) couldn't have the same gifts they do.  I noticed this quality among several folks who I observed as very Aspie-like in high school; they couldn't understand how anyone could be lacking the same kinds of intelligence they had, and were very egotistical about their cognitive gifts.

It is this overly prideful/oblivious attitude about intelligence that I have noticed (both in real life and on here to *some* extent) which can be harmful to Aspies who are not gifted (as myself), as we will feel like we don't belong.

The idea that IQ has nothing to do with core intelligence is bollocks; a study had been done (sorry, no link for the time being) that showed the spending patterns/career success of folks with various IQs (from 100 to 150, etc.) and there was a very significant difference between those at 100 and those at 150, etc.

erkolos Wrote:
I needed the post 85 one. It's always been:

1. Don't play games on the computer

2. Do the homework


Yeah, and don't listen to them.  Find something of a middleground if possible (do the homework AND play the games, can be tough), but don't take such advice literally.  If there's something you enjoy, then you happen to enjoy it.  Time enjoyed is time not wasted.

Mahler5 Wrote:

EvilZakkie Wrote:
Going to take another break on the rant tonight. Lately I've been staying up to 1am or so trying to finish off rants, and with a 6am start for work, it's been taking its toll... This is still a fairly new skill I'm trying to develop, and it's still taking me a long while to come up with interesting topics. Hopefully I can eventually "break through the wall" and turn my creative writing ability on and off at will, but until then, I think sometimes I just need a recharge.

I'll try to get up to regular viewing again over the weekend - Signing off for now!


I will miss the everydayness of it all but completely understand. And thanks for all your rants so far. I believe it is much more difficult to find a topic, think about it, and then write about it intelligently- than to simply sit back to read all about it. However, one can hardly just passively read anything that you have written here-you have good ideas that provoke thinking.
er..can thinking be provoked? I am having trouble coming up with just ONE word  
Smile
Your rants are also hugely interesting and much fun to read. You ARE a creative writer, EvilZakkie.
Take all the recharging time you need and want.
( beed and bont?)  
Smile

'bont' needs one of those little 'r' trademark circly-things. Good word, great idea.


Yes, you certainly do have a lot of great ideas, Zakkie--you are a creative writer.

Who needs *** Academia when mastering the art of "The Idea" is just as effective, if not moreso.  I say, Do it Yourself.

EvilZakkie Wrote:
Rant for 19/11/07 - Subtle Synesthesia effects

When I was first diagnosed as Aspie and started to read up on the experiences of others, some of the most fascinating experiences were those of synesthesia. For those new to the concept, Synesthesia is where a sensory experience or cognitive concept is experienced simultaneously as an entirely different sensory experience or cognitive concept. So smells could be experienced as colours, different emotions could cause you to experience different tastes, etc.

I used to wish that I could glimpse the hidden personalities of numbers, hear colours, and know what different words smelled like. But, unfortunately, I realised that I did not experience Synesthesia - except for the kind of Synesthesic effects everybody gets, like seeing black and white patterns when I heard an unexpected noise.

It was nearly a decade later that I found out that other people did not see black and white patterns when they heard unexpected noises.

In a recent discussion with Bella about writing fiction, she told me that it was easy for her to recognise when the words didn't flow, because the piece no longer had a "voice".

The use of the word "voice" started us talking about Synesthesia. Could these sorts of "wild" Aspie talents be due to subtle Synesthesia effects? And what other subtle effects could Synesthesia have?

For myself, I've always been able to think of everyday things in mathematical terms. Could it be possible that my visual and logical processing centres are co-processing, letting me turn visual info into mathematical concepts, and vice versa?

For Aspie artists out there - the ones that have always found art easy, at any rate - is it possible that you could be co-processing experiences or concepts and visual images, to an extent?

And what other sorts of subtle Synesthesia effects could be influencing us without our knowledge. Could some stimuli be automatically co-processed as pleasurable or unpleasant emotions, subtly influencing the things we like and dislike?

Of course, it doesn't really change things if abilities and experiences are Synesthesia or non-Synesthesia related, but if we were able to pinpoint which Synesthesia effects we had, it may help us in knowing which new things we may or may not have natural talents or aversions to. Plus it will lead to some odd discussions, which is always a plus.

Anyways, I'll end the rant here, because I'm absolutely purple with tiredness. 'Til next time!


I don't know precisely what this means, but a lot of words and frequently used phrases seem to have their own personality for me.  I have an entire list of words in my head that, quite frankly, are simply "ugly."  Hence I hate using them, or reading them.  I do think there is some sort of odd sensory component, partly behind this.

Anyone else know what this is?

EvilZakkie2 Wrote:
Just to clarify, is it that these words actually seem to have a personality, or just that you feel an unexplained negative reaction to them?


Well, it is probably the latter.

Zakkie, I am a little confused about your religion... don't mind me tho, I am sure I'm the only one who has these problems.  My cognitive functions have been out of shape for a while, with good reason.

Yeah, so I like to ask questions.  So, what do you mean by "just different entities" comprising existence?  Perhaps you could explain it in a slightly different way, to help me understand.

Is this the same thing as the Buddhist belief that "everything is illusion"?

EvilZakkie2 Wrote:

Batman55 Wrote:
I don't know precisely what this means, but a lot of words and frequently used phrases seem to have their own personality for me.  I have an entire list of words in my head that, quite frankly, are simply "ugly."  Hence I hate using them, or reading them.  I do think there is some sort of odd sensory component, partly behind this.

Anyone else know what this is?


Assigning personalities to words and phrases would definitely be a form of Synesthesia.

Just to clarify, is it that these words actually seem to have a personality, or just that you feel an unexplained negative reaction to them? Because the other possibility is that you've somehow placed these words into the "reactive" part of your brain - the same way that people place swear words, or that extremely literary types place grammatical errors...


There are some words I don't like because they seem ugly and then remind me of bad smells. Some noises remind me of bad smells too. Colours can remind me of good smells, except really yukky and horrible colours, which again remind me of something smelly. I wonder if this is an example of synaesthesia.

EvilZakkie Wrote:
- If you get involved in Autistic rights debates, you may be tempted to insult Neurotypical people, or say that Autistics are "better" than Neurotypicals. Don't. Anti-NT statements are just as moronic and counterproductive as anti-Autistic statements. If you say to people that it's okay to have a different neurotype, you'd better believe that it's okay to have a different neurotype, such as Neurotypicalism.


You're right about this, but it ought to be pointed out--generally speaking--that NTs are more trouble for us, than we are for them.

EvilZakkie Wrote:
The way you can tell this apart from the usual "closing" of body language is that the "burst" effect is very quick, and not based on anything you have actually done. To test this, try another attempt at communication, and see if you are "rewarded" by another brief burst of energy - such as a brief flash of eye contact, the person crossing their legs towards you, or turning towards you then away from you once more.


How to tell if these brief "bursts" imply interest or are simply coincidental, though?  This is a problem for me, being AS.  I can't read these signals for beans.

EvilZakkie Wrote:
Rant for 26/11/07 - The antisocial club

Usually in rants I like to state one of my beliefs, or attempt to offer some sort of insight into an issue. Today I thought I'd take a different approach, and actually ask for your experiences and advice.

One of the things I've wanted ever since the age of 15 is regular contact with other Aspies - yet I have absolutely no idea how to achieve this. I live in Brisbane, and so I'm practically on top of Tony Attwoods clinic - so, at least in theory, this should be Aspie central.

To clarify, what I'm after is social contact with other Aspies, rather than "support group" contact. By now, I think my life's pretty much on track, and I've found little tricks and tips to get around my various issues, so I don't really need help with problems. For this reason, even though there are a few "support" groups in the area, I wouldn't feel comfortable joining any of them - mostly because I think it puts the focus on "issues" rather than enjoyment.

So, how does a person bring together a groups of Aspies or Autistics for the purposes of enjoyable afternoons? Where would it be best to advertise such a group? And what sorts of negative situations would I have to look out for in attempting to build such a group?

I'd be especially interested to see if anyone else has successfully done this, and how it worked out for them.

My ultimate dream would be to set a regular "Antisocial Club" for Spectrumites to meet up over coffee, or do various activities. If I was even more ambitious, I'd love to encourage others around the world to set up their own "Antisocial Clubs", and set up a networked organisation between them all.

So, any ideas?


There's been some attempts to set up social aspie clubs for adults in Townsville but it can be like herding cats sometimes. I was also disappointed to find that I was being left out of informal activities earlier in the year because I am a woman and older than most of the others. It's bad enough to already be marginalised in society but to be marginalised within a marginalised group is truly horrible Sad

There are two support groups that I know of but they are mostly for parents with young aspie kids and you get a lot of strong personalities and personal agendas and for those reasons, I don't feel comfortable about going to those groups.

The main issue I have is organising repairs/getting the lawn mowed (an ongoing saga which I won't go into here means that my lawn is usually unmowed) because of severe phone phobia.

However, apart from that, it would be better to have a primarily social group of adult aspies.

I thought there was an adult aspie group in Brisbane but that was a while ago so it could have folded.

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