Aspies For Freedom

There was this girl who comes in sometimes and I am attracted to, anyways she was here today sending something. I think this girl is fine and neat, she's kinda fun to see... she has said I have a mischievous smile before, on multiple occasions. Also she has looked alot at me IMO.

The fact is I've no idea what she thinks, and I don't imagine going out anytime soon cuz that's seeming impossible now-a-days. I'm a loser and mostly have 0 friends, she had an incredible tan and looked healthier than I've ever been. So I guess I just wanted to vent here and tell you all about this cool girl who I fancy but will never get to know.

I had thought her comments about my smile being mischievous were some attempt at flattery, but now I think it's just something a girl says idly when she doesn't even care and later will forget it entirely. To bad for me I say, but alas my life is a bummer

In my experience, I was absolutely miserable for many years until I very nervously asked if I could be "more than just friends" with a certain girl on whom I had long-time crush.  She kindly declined on account of already being in a relationship unbeknown to me.  Well that made me REALLY miserable, closer to suicidal.  And so, during my deepest, darkest, dismal depth of despair, I finally realized that if I am to have any chance at getting a girlfriend, I would need to change.  I would need to stop beating myself up, physically and emotionally.  I would need to improve my level of self esteem, if not for her, then for any future potential mates.  I am glad she rejected me because that is just the motivation I needed to improve.  If she had accepted me as I was in my depressed state, our relationship would probably have been short lived, and I would still be depriving myself of all positive emotions to this day.

So if you want your life to be less of a bummer, ask her out and hope she rejects you.  You need to feel confident about yourself before you can feel confident about a potential relationship.  If she accepts you, well... give it a try, I guess.