08-12-2004, 10:13 PM
I don't want to go quietly through life and prove to others who I am or contend with others on meaningless ideals just so I can survive. I don't want nor care for ideals such as territory, money, social standing, patriotism, one's honor (i.e. revenge) and millions of other petty concerns of this world. Unfortunately if I don't care, I can't survive. The rules or moralities of society dictate that I must have financial resources, understand and act in politics, maintain my standing, and have ownership of things so that I can use them.
People might call me an "escapist" and think that I'm making a huge fuss over nothing. People's ways of life have persisted for centuries, and they do not have any problem with this. As for me, I don't want this so-called life. I'm frustrated and tired of living a life where I must compromise and put up with all the nonsense.
Many times someone accuses me of not putting adequate effort towards things because, a) I did not receive enough pay or b) I have not motivated my self enough. To me these seem like ridiculous ideas, because when I start something I always try the best I can with the knowledge I have to perform everything required. The problem I see is the inadequate ability to recall and act on the things I know.
People might call me an "escapist" and think that I'm making a huge fuss over nothing. People's ways of life have persisted for centuries, and they do not have any problem with this. As for me, I don't want this so-called life. I'm frustrated and tired of living a life where I must compromise and put up with all the nonsense.
Many times someone accuses me of not putting adequate effort towards things because, a) I did not receive enough pay or b) I have not motivated my self enough. To me these seem like ridiculous ideas, because when I start something I always try the best I can with the knowledge I have to perform everything required. The problem I see is the inadequate ability to recall and act on the things I know.